Old forgotten memories creep up when I'm on the verge

[Dor]

When I'm just on the verge these old forgotten memories pop back up again, usually from my childhood, really valuable and cherished moments from my life. These all come back at once when I am in this odd emotional state, and when I'm out of it again I forget them all again, can't access them again. I can't even remember what memories poped up during that state, just that it did pop up and it did mean a great deal to me. It's bizarre, perhaps it's my subconscious fighting back wanting to survive, luring me with these memories. I don't know.

Anyone else experienced anything similar?

 

[Johnnythefox]

All the time, some are good some are bad,
It's intrusive thoughts.

 

[Dor]

For me though all of them are good... I guess because my childhood was the only time I was ever truly happy.

I feel like myself, like a human, in a very brief period. I wished I could always feel like that.

 

[Kyrok]

Whenever I'm not distracted, I'm thinking about one or another awful moment.

 

[Salvacion]

When I'm just on the verge these old forgotten memories pop back up again, usually from my childhood, really valuable and cherished moments from my life. These all come back at once when I am in this odd emotional state, and when I'm out of it again I forget them all again, can't access them again. I can't even remember what memories poped up during that state, just that it did pop up and it did mean a great deal to me. It's bizarre, perhaps it's my subconscious fighting back wanting to survive, luring me with these memories. I don't know.

Anyone else experienced anything similar?

This is exactly what I feel. And it makes everything so much worse because remember the previous blissful happiness and people that were good to us

 

[ParamitePie]

Whenever I'm tired, drunk or relaxed, I get terrible memories. They're invasive, emotionally overwhelming and leave me feeling horrible for hours. Every time, it's like I'm having a panic attack and I get this nagging need to just curl up in a ball and hide from the world. I love feeling like my own brain is trying to stab me in the back.

 

[Final Escape]

When I'm just on the verge these old forgotten memories pop back up again, usually from my childhood, really valuable and cherished moments from my life. These all come back at once when I am in this odd emotional state, and when I'm out of it again I forget them all again, can't access them again. I can't even remember what memories poped up during that state, just that it did pop up and it did mean a great deal to me. It's bizarre, perhaps it's my subconscious fighting back wanting to survive, luring me with these memories. I don't know.

Anyone else experienced anything similar?

When you're attempting to ctb or heavily contemplating?

 

[Dor]

When you're attempting to ctb or heavily contemplating?

Heavily contemplating