Nothing left to long for

[Nolan96]

I was never happy, I always wanted things that were unattainable, many of them simple things most take for granted but which I was incapable of, and many of them simple things that shouldn't be such a big deal but which others judged me for and made unnecessarily difficult.

Now I look at the state of things around me and I don't see anything I long for anymore, but that doesn't feel like any sort of liberation. It just feels even more desperate and disappointing. And I'm longing for a past which was miserable anyway, but where there was still a strained and futile sense of aspiration.

 

[whatevs]

You can always shitpost and long for the sweet red notifications.