Not even close

[Tabbyql]

I've had to change the date and plan several times in the past few weeks. I feel like a failure, the one thing I thought I had control of (my death) and things keep going wrong. I've been too embarrassed to come on here all week, I announced I was going to be gone. And I didn't even get close didn't even leave the house. Feel like a liar. I know there is way bigger stuff going on in the world. I don't know what's going on in my head. I just know I can't live like this anymore.

 

[Honigwaffel]

You are not a failure and you are certainly not a liar. Sometimes things just do not work out as intended, we all understand and have experienced it ourselves. You shouldn't be embarrassed to wright about this, we are here for you.

 

[soda_pressed]

You definitely aren't a failure! Death is a big thing please don't beat yourself up about this. x

 

[silentsinger]

I've had to change the date and plan several times in the past few weeks. I feel like a failure, the one thing I thought I had control of (my death) and things keep going wrong. I've been too embarrassed to come on here all week, I announced I was going to be gone. And I didn't even get close didn't even leave the house. Feel like a liar. I know there is way bigger stuff going on in the world. I don't know what's going on in my head. I just know I can't live like this anymore.

Please don't feel that way. It is such a serious and final thing. Never be embarrassed to come on here because of that, it is not something to rush into. I have had the same instances. I've been feeling so ill lately and I feel very alone which makes me want to do It all the more. I send you love.