Nobody knows how to deal with this

[MisterOGBongWater]

I don't know what is wrong with me but I've been shown time and time again that truly trying to be open about these feelings just scares people and you have to lie and retract everything you said so they feel better. And then you're alone with it again and all you're left with is a reassurance that this mental illness is a pit we can't even get helping hand out of.

 

[Dingo67]

Nothing is wrong with you, our society just happens to have an extereme phobia of ctb and doesn't know how to handle talking about it.

 

[MisterOGBongWater]

Nothing is wrong with you, our society just happens to have an extereme phobia of ctb and doesn't know how to handle talking about it.

I'm really tired and wish someone could just help me get past this

 

[Dingo67]

I'm really tired and wish someone could just help me get past this

Sometimes, we aren't lucky enough to have anyone their for us and so we have to deal with everything by ourselves. Life sucks :(

 

[foreverstardust]

I think that most countries do not have the resources and professionals available to properly support suicidal people, unless you're rich enough to pay for the best psychiatrists available most mental health support is just about keeping you alive not actually helping you. And the average friend or family member that you can open up to is so unequipped to deal with the seriousness of suicidal thoughts that you just get the generic platitudes about how people love you and you'll be missed, which whilst that can be enough for some doesn't do anything for the rest of us.

 

[cracklingroses]

I don't know what is wrong with me but I've been shown time and time again that truly trying to be open about these feelings just scares people and you have to lie and retract everything you said so they feel better. And then you're alone with it again and all you're left with is a reassurance that this mental illness is a pit we can't even get helping hand out of.

There is nothing wrong with you. I am having that same experience, and it really is so isolating. Feeling so isolated in your struggles and having to put up a mask when you are around others is extremely hard to go through day in and day out. You are not alone in this. I am really sorry you are going through it. I hope you are able to find people who will allow you to process what you are going through, and can give you the compassion and empathy you deserve

 

[maniac116]

I think that's why there's a need for this forum. We can speak openly about how we feel.
It doesn't take the place of having a true friend that you can tell anything to but those friends are few & far between