No way out

[Sr Red]

Does anyone else experience what I do, where they're going to commit suicide not because they want to, but because they have no other way out? Illness, a court sentence, etc., that kind of hopeless situation.

 

[ilovenewyork]

I think that's true of a lot of people. Just can't accept the reality

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Yes.

 

[Claymore7274]

I started my year not wanting to kill myself but having to, but now i kinda just want to end it

 

[Sr Red]

I don't want to die, but things have happened that have left me with no future, so I have no other option; I'll kill myself. I always thought that if I committed suicide it would be because of depression, not this. I'm putting it off for too long, but it's difficult, this situation...

 

[madameviolette]

Yes. My body is a torture chamber with a nervous system injury that doesn't even exist in nature. No other way out

 

[darksouls]

yes, my health is very poor

 

[DeadManLiving]

Yes. Can't survive without money.

 

[Hermitcrab]

Reading this thread made me remember a quote by David Foster Wallace. I included it in my final message to my family a few years ago when I first tried, hoping it would maybe explain decision a bit. Perhaps it speaks to some of you the same way it spoke to me.

"The so-called 'psychotically depressed' person who tries to kill herself doesn't do so out of quote 'hopelessness' or any abstract conviction that life's assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire's flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It's not desiring the fall; it's terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling 'Don't!' and 'Hang on!', can understand the jump. Not really. You'd have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling."

 

[cursedlife]

Main reason for me commiting suicide is because of poverty , my mental health ( schizophrenia and anxiety ) is bad but not enough to make me kill myself ,if I had money a lot of aspects of life would be better also it doesn't help that I live in a shithole , suicide is the only solution for me now .

 

[itsgone2]

Yes. This isn't my first time considering suicide, but it feels like the last.
My company is being sold, so I'm about to be losing income and benefits. It's the second time it's happened at a place that I thought I could retire. It just seems like, what's the point?

There are other factors. But yes, I feel like this will only continue and I only see bad things in the world continuing and I'm just done. I wish I could just hit a switch and turn this off.