no longer have fears after failed attempt

[bbveevee]

I'm wondering if this happened to anyone else. After my failed attempt I realized Im no longer scared of anything, I used to have an insane bug phobia and now I couldn't care less, as a girl walking in the dark used to be scary but now I cant really be bothered. Its kind of good in a sense but it must be just because I wouldn't mind dying.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

Yes, Ive felt this way after attempting partial.
It's as though you cross a certain threshold after an attempt and your perception of certain things changes forever.

 

[bbveevee]

Yes, Ive felt this way after attempting partial.
It's as though you cross a certain threshold after an attempt and your perception of certain things changes forever.

Yes this is exactly what it's like, my suicidal ex used to sau he is not afraid of the dark or monsters and now I deeply understand him

 

[R_N]

I became numb when it comes to many things the more I lived and suffered.

In a way it also helped me cope because I can still enjoy some things as well.

 

[bbveevee]

I became numb when it comes to many things the more I lived and suffered.

In a way it also helped me cope because I can still enjoy some things as well.

I understand you, I feel like it was sort of a reality check.. but in the sense that I no longer seek deep meaning in life