SchizoGymnast

SchizoGymnast

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May 28, 2024
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It's New Year's Eve ringing in 2026 and I'm here for it. What does it look like for me?

Like most people, I have my decor and my food. Typically I choose between Chinese food and pizza. Today I have a noisemaker, a necklace, a starry headband, and of course, the tacky 2026 glasses. If you know anything about me, there will 100% be bold makeup and a photoshoot in my future. I worked at the homeless shelter so I brought in some decor for the residents. Big hit.

Normally, I go for a classy champagne, especially when I'm with my mom. This year, however, I'm being a little more adventurous with some orange-flavored Grey Goose vodka and some cranberry juice. My cats will get some Fancy Feast. I will be watching the ball drop and waving at the people on screen as if they can actually see me (super dorky behavior, I know.)

I'm just a teeeeeensy bit ritualistic about this holiday. I want my whole physical body to exude new energy, so I have some new pants and I shower and I use some fancy leave-in conditioner and hair spray. As we speak, I am playing a playlist that includes Unstoppable by Sia and Safe and Sound by Capital Cities. And the undying classic I'm Still Standing by Elton John.

As you can see, I invest a lot in this holiday, but there are two traditions that I particularly cherish and these are writing a card to myself and donating money.

Basically, every year, I write a card to myself on NYE about where I've been, who I am and where I'm going. The idea is to hide it and not read it again until next NYE. It's like a time capsule. I've been doing this for years and while I've said all sorts of weird shit, the overarching theme is that I made it, and I'm enough. It's a pick-me-up.

Donating money on NYE is great because A LOT of organizations do campaigns where if you get your donation in before 11:59pm on NYE, your donation will be matched by wealthy donors. Two times, three times, it depends. One organization I gave to matched my donation 5 times.This year, I gave to a few different organizations who all did different things. One to preserve ocean ecosystems. One to fight human trafficking. I tried to focus on groups I had never heard of before.

If I had my way, I would be in Times Square right now. Or perhaps in Hong Kong, watching their drone show. For now, I'm watching my cats.

Lastly, I bought a card specifically to remember SaSu members who have died. It's a loss that they are not here to celebrate with us, but sometimes, I think that death itself is a new year that never ends.

What about you? Do you have any plans? Any resolutions?

I have a bunch of different goals I want to pursue, like start my YouTube channel or make more art or learn a second language. But I have only two rock hard resolutions.

To stay alive and to speak life.

Welcome to 2026!
 
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SchizoGymnast

SchizoGymnast

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May 28, 2024
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If you've read my other post, you know I've recently learned of a death at my workplace. I've added some sadder, more pensive songs to my playlist to accommodate this fact. Like "I am not okay" by Jelly Roll and There Will Be Rest by Frank Tichelli. While I firmly believe that New Year's is about life being worth living...how can we talk about life being valuable if we aren't shaken by its loss? I'm giving myself permission to feel all my feelings and, surprisingly, I'm genuinely okay. As I get older, I've learned that I'm someone that continually rises to the challenge, and someday, the challenge will be over. And it will be a distant memory.

Since I'm working, and driving, tonight, I won't be drinking my vodka. But I do have other cool plans. I've decided to pour some around my front door as a libation. Vodka symbolizes fire and resilience in the darkest times. Orange (the flavor I picked) symbolizes all kinds of good things...luck, prosperity, etc. I pour some inside to bring warmth and good fortune into my home. I pour some outside to give me strength to face the world.

I posted my number to social media in case anyone I know is at risk of drunk driving. I do this every year. Either I'm physically driving them myself, or if I can't, we're coming up with a different plan. It's my mission to be guardian of the night on New Year's Eve. I've never gotten a call yet. But I'll always burn the midnight oil in case one comes.
1000001433 My libation to my Lord.
 
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Happy New Year to all those reading. I believe you can do hard things and derive great meaning and that great joy lies ahead.
 
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If you've read my other post, you know I've recently learned of a death at my workplace. I've added some sadder, more pensive songs to my playlist to accommodate this fact. Like "I am not okay" by Jelly Roll and There Will Be Rest by Frank Tichelli. While I firmly believe that New Year's is about life being worth living...how can we talk about life being valuable if we aren't shaken by its loss? I'm giving myself permission to feel all my feelings and, surprisingly, I'm genuinely okay. As I get older, I've learned that I'm someone that continually rises to the challenge, and someday, the challenge will be over. And it will be a distant memory.

Since I'm working, and driving, tonight, I won't be drinking my vodka. But I do have other cool plans. I've decided to pour some around my front door as a libation. Vodka symbolizes fire and resilience in the darkest times. Orange (the flavor I picked) symbolizes all kinds of good things...luck, prosperity, etc. I pour some inside to bring warmth and good fortune into my home. I pour some outside to give me strength to face the world.

I posted my number to social media in case anyone I know is at risk of drunk driving. I do this every year. Either I'm physically driving them myself, or if I can't, we're coming up with a different plan. It's my mission to be guardian of the night on New Year's Eve. I've never gotten a call yet. But I'll always burn the midnight oil in case one comes.
View attachment 190790My libation to my Lord.
oof why this one in particular? does it taste good?
 

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