Fakereality
Student
- Aug 4, 2021
- 130
This place is interesting to say the say the least. people here are suffering from so many difficulties in life and understand what life truly is it's been such a wild ride to read about their life philosophies their world view and how much relatable it felt to me personally and most of all how honest and genuine it feel to read something which is very rare to find in this hell hole of a suffocating corporate world as for me I have been depressed and suicidal for like my whole life the first I thought about suicide was probably at the age of 12 on my birthday when I was on a roof and thought and contemplate about jumping but decided against because at that time I still had this weird fantasy that my parents love me and will be very sad if I am gone needles to say that was just me being delusional my parents are narcissistic they never saw me as another human being but just a trash on whom they can force their life expectations onto the star of the show was always my big "sister" the reason for which my childhood self never understood or refuse to understood and always thought that it's not the case that I am just imagining things etc etc in short my childhood consisted of lots of unnecessary beating on smallest of things being used as a punching bag being emotionally tortured in every way possible so called "big sister" being a daddy's girl and getting me beaten by him by pretending to be vulnerable and making me out to be a monster of some kind you know the usual toxic siblings manipulation school life was shit had to used her 3 year old books and stuff in school because I was not worth anything in my father's eye nowadays my brain has been full of nightmares which I get daily needles to say my parents and my big sister have been a big part of those nightmares well that's enough of my story for now sorry if I bored you or anything and if my paragraph is hard to read.
