Never good enough.

[Parnate]

I have always felt like a burden, I am financially independent and also sustain my parents yet I feel like a burden. I always feel like the unfit in a group. I am 32 years now, I have never ever felt good enough, I always carry this cloud on my shoulders a feeling of guilt for no reason , of being wrong, incapable etc. it was my mother first who used to shout and yell and tell me how bad I was, my sister later who did the same. And here I am , an extremely damaged individual. I want a new loving, caring family. A mother who will accept me and love me unconditionally. I remember trying my best to get appreciated by my mother, but I was never good enough.

 

[tonicer]

I have always felt like a burden, I am financially independent and also sustain my parents yet I feel like a burden. I always feel like the unfit in a group. I am 32 years now, I have never ever felt good enough, I always carry this cloud on my shoulders a feeling of guilt for no reason , of being wrong, incapable etc. it was my mother first who used to shout and yell and tell me how bad I was, my sister later who did the same. And here I am , an extremely damaged individual. I want a new loving, caring family. A mother who will accept me and love me unconditionally. I remember trying my best to get appreciated by my mother, but I was never good enough.

That really sucks especially because you sustain your parents. Is you father at least appreciative of you? I think both should be. My mother loves me even though i am a 40+ year old jobless loser but i help her a lot around the house and get to live in her house for that reason.