Anyone here experience symptoms of a nervous breakdown when the timing of CTB grows near? I mean like anxiety at another level. Not just normal "I feel stressed" but like your gonna lose your shit. What concerns me is losing my shit before I can CTB. What a strange feeling this is — that my goal is to CTB. My entire life I have spent doing things to stay alive and now I need to reverse course entirely.
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I've been experiencing nervous breakdown symptoms for almost two years, and the only "peace" I have is when I think about my upcoming death.
Literally the only reason I am here is because I am so nonfunctional that the things I need to complete before I go are simply not getting done. It's not a subconscious will to live—it's simply massive massive procrastination on a grand scale.I am scared to live, scared to die: this is so awful.I've experienced the same. I think the whole nervous breakdown stuff in me before CTB seems to be linked with the fear of failure, fear of being found, hospitalized. That's the biggest one for me.Similar threads
