Like I have mentioned so many times on here, my "parents" did not want me from the start, but back in 1956, they wanted to leave me at the hospital, when I came out a male and NOT a female child, but social norms back then would have buried them so I went "home" with them. Spent the next 18 years getting food, shelter and clothing and nothing else, while my 2 siblings got cats at 18, I was kicked out the day after I turned 18 with no food, money, shelter, nothing. Never heard from them again, 100% their choice.
In fact, it was in their wills that I was NOT supposed to show up at their funerals. I honored it to keep the peace.
Now with that all said, looking back at it, it was extremely difficult, however, it also helped set me up to do very well for myself all these decades later.
So I totally feel where you are coming from, HOWEVER, you have a lovely partner and so much to look forward to. Yes, it is hard, not having loving parents, BUT also having a partner to watch a fantastic sunrise and/or sunset and to have a beautiful life together is pure bliss.
You and your partner can build a wonderful life together and with you being such a caring and thoughtful person, there is absolutely nothing that you and your partner cannot do.
I am only average at best and if I have done ok, guess what? You will be outstanding in life and business (work).
Lots of caring vibes and hugs to you and your partner,
Walter