My social life is a MESS

[submarinedownsea]

Venting post because i dont have no one to talk about anymore. Im in colage (faculdade), and this is all my mornings, wich seems not much if wasnt the fact im alone. Okay not ALONE but i dont have no one to talk with freedom, we are 3 but they are a duo, best friends, and i feel such a loser because i dont have one, i used until i realize, shes not the friend i considerd she was to me since she didnt tell me one of the most importing things was happening in her life and this is not a problem, it woudnt if she wasnt telling EVERYONE BUT ME. I feel let down, a zero, sometimes i wanna kill myself in front of them just so i can make them feel guilty forever, nobody cares, i tryd everything to fit in, to have my placa but will always have a side group on ig im not in, a joke they giggle and i ask "what?" And they say "nothing" cause i dont fit with them, im just an optional add. I feel bad, its a miserable life, no friends, no one. Its not to simple like just met new people because everyone alredy have someone and wont give me a chance, and the ones who is free expect me to be something. I miss wen i was special, to my exhusband, to my mom, to my dad... wen someone makd sure if i was okay. I wanna kms in public so i can be an example of what happens wen ur a selfish person who dosent.

 

[meatballlover]

I have similar motives for my ctb but unfortunately it is unpredictable how people will react to suicide. I agree, being socially excluded like this sucks and its often not anyones fault.