Method MY SN JUST ARRIVED. EARLY. UK. It almost got confiscated by family!

[ChildrensITV]

THANKS SO MUCH TO THIS WEBSITE. I WOULD HAVE NO OPTIONS WITHOUT THIS SITE!

This site didn't make me suicidal! It allowed me to explore my thoughts, however dark they went, and gave me the option of life or suicide. It just gave me the FREEDOM TO CHOOSE.

So the package says NITRITE ON THE FUCKING ENVELOPE! Not sure how it made it here through customs. I didn't have to show ID to IC btw. Maybe cuz of my form of payment? So anyway, family alerted me to the package which was a couple days EARLY. With my kind of luck, they would have confiscated it, especially since they read the package. I got asked: "Why do you have nitrates? That is POISON". So my family isn't as ignorant as I thought. I made up some lie about it being for cleaning. The fact that I am this age and have to lie to family is another reason why I need SN.

Note, it is Nitrite, not Nitrate. I guess they have never heard of nitrite before. With my luck, I am surprised that I was able to order it before the IC website went down. That was on a knife-edge! I just need to hide the package somewhere incase someone tries to "save me". I AM SO RELIEVED.

I FEEL LIKE I CAN START PLANNING FOR REAL. I do feel bad though cuz now my family will blame themselves for handing me the package. That's going to be brutal for them. Hmm. I can't make my death look like a suicide, cuz I will be leaving them PINs, passwords and some instructions. I would prefer that they not be involved in this process. They are going to have such regret.

Well, I have a few months to figure it out.

 

[SVEN]

Wow, won a watch on that one ! Keep it well planked out of sight.

 

[Rogue Proxy]

Congratulations, and good luck with your existential escape!

 

[SilentSadness]

I feel somewhat jealous that you have the resources and are brave enough to ctb by SN, if you do choose to go through with it I wish you luck. That is also terrible that you have to lie to your family as an adult just to be treated properly. I hope you find peace in the future.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would feel so relieved at having a way to exit this world, I certainly hate how it's so difficult to plan to die, those who wish to be gone should just be able to pass away in peace without the fear of other people selfishly and unfairly interfering with their plans. It's just so wrong how some people want to force those who are suicidal to suffer.