blckfurmutt
Member
- Dec 24, 2025
- 5
i have so many self harm scars all over my body and i used to like them but now i'm starting to really despise them, i used to wear them with pride, now it makes me feel so fucking ugly. especially now that i have a boyfriend and none of the women he follows on instagram look anything like me. not their race, not their body, just nothing. he tries reassuring me but his words don't mean a thing when the actions are different. my skin is scarred in every single possible place, my chest my legs my stomach my back. i don't have smooth beautiful skin and i never will. either i can cope by glamorizing it again or i can just keep being miserable and insecure over it. i'll never look feminine and delicate in a dress. i just look broken. imagine trying to walk down the aisle looking like me. i'm malnourished, no hips, no curves, and scarred head to toe. i hate my body. it's just stupid to try and act like something i'm not, i cant be like a beautiful delicate woman with how i look. they make me feel like some kind of animal.
