Venting My parents missed me, and now I don’t know how to feel…

[Dying Opportunity]

For the longest time I felt like my parents wouldn't really mind if I just disappeared one day due to the insanity and chaos that is our family life…until today. On a whim i decided to walk home from a physical therapy center close to my home after forgetting that one of my parents said they would drive me back, and I was enjoying a rare freedom that I seldomly get.

It wasn't until I stopped by a cafe close to my house did I check my phone. Holy shit. I had an insane amount of phone calls from the both of them. The therapist even called after my parents went to get me and he had to tell them that I already left. Luckily they were able to find me through Life360 and take me home from there.

On one had they were very forgiving and understanding of why I did that, but on the other had I can't shake the guilt of scaring them and having to replan everything around my absence. All this time I thought that I was only valuable because of what I can provide due to my Parentificatied upbringing, and I guess I still do, but knowing they reacted like that is seriously fucking with me.

I'm torn between wanting to CTB and wanting to stay for both my family's sake and because I want to see where I can take my life. 2026 is going to be an interesting year…

 

[timf]

Many parents get so busy with daily life that they assume that their children know the love they have for them. Many children run away or assume that their parents do not care for them. Rivers of tears have been shed because of these misunderstandings.

The uncertainties of adult life can seem overwhelming to a younger person because they have not had the experiences that make adult life seem familiar or manageable. Parents can fall into the trap that what their children need to learn they learn in school. This is often because that was how they were raised. However, the absence of learning anything useful for life in school can cause all sorts of anxieties. However, once one gains some experiences, life can actually be enjoyable.