Venting my parents found out i self harm

[dangerstars]

Yeah... i cut myself on my upper arm and for some reason thought it was a good idea to wear really short sleeves and my mom saw my less bad arm but she still saw. i heard her talking with my dad and seems like they suspect self harm... just what i needed in time for the new year.

My mom was drunk when she saw it but i don't think she's gonna forget. the worst thing is i know this impacts every interaction i have with my parents now... i've talked to my dad a bit and it already seems different and i just feel so sick

The worst part is just that i hate having serious conversations with my mom. no matter how good i am at lying, i cannot hold back tears. i always end up crying. i don't wanna do this

But whenever she does bring it up my first strategy is that maybe she'll believe me if i deny it before she even asks, like "i realized it kind of looks like i cut myself or something haha, that'd be concerning. i dunno what's going on there" and if that fails "it was like once a really long time ago, mostly out of morbid curiosity." the cuts she saw are a month or so old so maybe i can convince her they're older than they are.

I just hope she doesn't look at my other arm, that one's worse. not like she can do much... not the end of the world, i just don't want to go through this.

cheers to hoping i can actually move out this year.

 

[deathwish]

Why's your parents knowing such a bad thing?

 

[dangerstars]

Why's your parents knowing such a bad thing?

it's not the end of the world i just hate having serious conversations like that with my mom more than anything else

 

[dangerstars]

update if anyone cares lmao.

my mom asked and i just played completely stupid and somehow that worked.

'parently she's not very smart

 

[kiwimochii]

update if anyone cares lmao.

my mom asked and i just played completely stupid and somehow that worked.

'parently she's not very smart

My mum is somewhat similar i guess, unless they just don't want to believe their child would do something like that.

Had a few nasty scars on my upper arms which really could not be explained any other way but she bought the lie and even expressed genuine concern and regret over the fact that the scars are unsightly and odd.

It's a shitty situation to be in nevertheless I hope you're alright

 

[fungus]

I also always have to remind myself to not accidentally wear too short clothes. One of the reasons why I only buy T-shirts with longer sleeves now. And you are not alone in crying during serious conversations. happens to me all the time, I hate it too. I don't know why regulating emotions is so hard in conversations with my parents.
And the behavior change is I think the hardest part to deal with.
For some people it is helpful or relieving to talk to their parents, but I just feel more uncomfortable at home because the moment I am a little bit down and don't act happy they are suddenly so different and are all concerned, since they found out I am depressed. Before that they didn't care if I was closed up or looked unhappy.

I now the struggel so I hope you're doing okey

 

[HangMan123]

update if anyone cares lmao.

my mom asked and i just played completely stupid and somehow that worked.

'parently she's not very smart

Yeah…my first thought would to be to pass them off as growth scars, but I'm glad that worked.
My mom found my noose and I just told her that it was a long time ago and I kept it because I didn't know how to get rid of it. That worked. Idk…I suspect it's largely because they want to believe that everything is fine.

 

[dangerstars]

Yeah…my first thought would to be to pass them off as growth scars, but I'm glad that worked.
My mom found my noose and I just told her that it was a long time ago and I kept it because I didn't know how to get rid of it. That worked. Idk…I suspect it's largely because they want to believe that everything is fine.

that was pretty much my plan... oh it was once a long time ago. she seemed to believe it's from my guitar strap which i would have never thought of lol

I also always have to remind myself to not accidentally wear too short clothes. One of the reasons why I only buy T-shirts with longer sleeves now. And you are not alone in crying during serious conversations. happens to me all the time, I hate it too. I don't know why regulating emotions is so hard in conversations with my parents.
And the behavior change is I think the hardest part to deal with.
For some people it is helpful or relieving to talk to their parents, but I just feel more uncomfortable at home because the moment I am a little bit down and don't act happy they are suddenly so different and are all concerned, since they found out I am depressed. Before that they didn't care if I was closed up or looked unhappy.

I now the struggel so I hope you're doing okey

it's hard for me 'cuz i live in a place that's super hot and i love wearing my band shirts that are all short sleeve :( i bought myself a band shirt for christmas that i really love but the sleeves are super short and that's how my mom saw. fortunately it's winter right now so i'm hoping all my scars are going to be mostly faded by the time it's more consistently warm again