My mother said

[deathenvoy]

that if I would kill myself she will die also (either by stroke or she will kill herself). I am devastated, I don't want to cause so much suffering to her. But I cannot live also.

 

[SadGirl]

I understand the situation, I cut myself in front of my mother one day, and she did not care, she was drunk, but anyway. I hope everything works out for you and that you find the peace you deserve.

 

[ExitTheDay]

This is the main reason why I cannot CTB, my mother... I am all shes got on this planet and that's enough to keep me here

 

[Lara Francis]

that if I would kill myself she will die also (either by stroke or she will kill herself). I am devastated, I don't want to cause so much suffering to her. But I cannot live also.

I am sorry to hear this.
My mum also tells me that i am causing her stress and she may have a stroke as the result.she has had 1 stroke already but was nothing to do with stress.
Its such a unfair guilt trip that suggests i choose to feel this way!
Its very harsh to say she will kill herself - does she mean it or just saying it to stop you,? do you have any siblings thats she would want to stay around for ?