Venting My Mom Attempted CTB, Following my CTB Attempts

[ForeverSleepy]

Hello everyone,

I want to share this experience with you, as I want to get this off my chest and also be able to remember all that is wrong with my life once I atttempt CTB again.

As I have said earlier, I unfortunately survived two CTB attempts with a different range of medications and alcohol. Two days ago, my mother missing, and due to this I filed a missing person's reports snf ran through all the emergency services as fast as possible and she was dtill not found. Later in the day, I was with my father when she called, disoriented and impaired, and we were able to make out where she was.

We found her, completely wrecked in her car from a benzodiazepene overdose. Today, she admitted to my father she did it because she got inspiration from me and that I influenced her.

No matter where I go, what situation I try to improve, something always, always falls on me.

I am at loss for words, thank you for reading.

 

[Ch4in3dcr0w]

Dont feel guilty for what the attempts u did and how they impacted those around you u felt and did what u had to do to feel peace, dont blame yourself for her decisions about her own life and that "inspiration" is just a disgusting way to put the blame on you. Much love

 

[ForeverSleepy]

Dont feel guilty for what the attempts u did and how they impacted those around you u felt and did what u had to do to feel peace, dont blame yourself for her decisions about her own life and that "inspiration" is just a disgusting way to put the blame on you. Much love

Thank you so much, to you too!

 

[flightless bird]

i'm so sorry. i don't know what to say.

hope she is okay and you are too. please hold her and tell her how much you love her. tell her to never do it again.

i wish you and your mom the best.

 

[TBONTB]

Hello everyone,

I want to share this experience with you, as I want to get this off my chest and also be able to remember all that is wrong with my life once I atttempt CTB again.

As I have said earlier, I unfortunately survived two CTB attempts with a different range of medications and alcohol. Two days ago, my mother missing, and due to this I filed a missing person's reports snf ran through all the emergency services as fast as possible and she was dtill not found. Later in the day, I was with my father when she called, disoriented and impaired, and we were able to make out where she was.

We found her, completely wrecked in her car from a benzodiazepene overdose. Today, she admitted to my father she did it because she got inspiration from me and that I influenced her.

No matter where I go, what situation I try to improve, something always, always falls on me.

I am at loss for words, thank you for reading.

So sorry you had this experience. BUT it's NOT your fault!!!! From your own experiences you know that this decision is a highly personal one that only you can make. Your Moms choice is your Moms choice.

Besides, she's the Mom, she's the grown-up. You are not responsible for her.

Take care, this pain is hard and serious, but it is not of your making.