KleinerWolf
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- Apr 30, 2020
- 2,700
I guess I'll just vent a little bit,
how having Chinese citizenship made me feel so powerless and I feel absolutely lost in life, like everything else such as relationship/social interactions just always been second priorities for me.
I've been depressed and stressing over the citizenship issue since 2011 and it's about to be a decade.
I have no idea what the f I'm going to do besides hoping for a miracle.
Truth be told, I hate my life, not how they were before and not how they are now.
I know it sounds stupid but it feels like I've already lost the battle,
seeing how my peers having a house, car, a relationship, family and friends they are somewhat close to.
Man, it's just a whole lot of sorrow and pain.
I can't begin to explain it. They are all twisted together.
Apparently to fill that pain, I just decide to lose more than $100 weekly on gambling.
Time doesn't exist.
I don't exist.
Contray to this reality, I was a winner. lol
I mean addictive behaviour are fascinating and I believe I can overcome it.
The issue is I can't seem to gather my head around the citizenship issue.
It was the root problem, everything stems off from there.
I don't know man honestly.
Bit of a shitshow really.
how having Chinese citizenship made me feel so powerless and I feel absolutely lost in life, like everything else such as relationship/social interactions just always been second priorities for me.
I've been depressed and stressing over the citizenship issue since 2011 and it's about to be a decade.
I have no idea what the f I'm going to do besides hoping for a miracle.
Truth be told, I hate my life, not how they were before and not how they are now.
I know it sounds stupid but it feels like I've already lost the battle,
seeing how my peers having a house, car, a relationship, family and friends they are somewhat close to.
Man, it's just a whole lot of sorrow and pain.
I can't begin to explain it. They are all twisted together.
Apparently to fill that pain, I just decide to lose more than $100 weekly on gambling.
Time doesn't exist.
I don't exist.
Contray to this reality, I was a winner. lol
I mean addictive behaviour are fascinating and I believe I can overcome it.
The issue is I can't seem to gather my head around the citizenship issue.
It was the root problem, everything stems off from there.
I don't know man honestly.
Bit of a shitshow really.
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