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failedmind

failedmind

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Oct 31, 2024
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I turned 24 today. I've been crying since I woke up. My mom gave me a card, and she wrote "I'm so happy you are still here." Just made me cry more. She kept telling me how shes so happy I'm still alive and with her.

Been planning to CTB for a while, in the process of getting SN & everything prepared. I feel so insanely guilty and I can't stop crying.

Nothing will change my mind, but I wish I didn't have to hurt my mom in the process. But I know that's unavoidable. Sigh.
 
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Well_Its_Time

Well_Its_Time

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Jan 23, 2025
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Happy birthday. Hope you find peace.
 
Shiru

Shiru

Endless sky
Dec 20, 2024
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Happy birthday I guess, hope you find peace
 
resurgence

resurgence

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Jan 17, 2025
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spend as much time with her as you can, remind her that you love her and appreciate her while you're still here.
i know how it feels to not wanna leave your mom and cause her more pain.. its so hard

can you do anything with her today? like even just watch a show or movie you both like or something along those lines?
 
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StrawberryRed

StrawberryRed

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Oct 16, 2024
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Feb 7th was my birthday too! It was also a harsh day for me too. Birthdays can be such hard days😒
 
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human909

human909

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Dec 30, 2024
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I hope you find peace soon!
 
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maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
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Happy last Birthday!🎂🎁
 
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sadalways

sadalways

My birth was an error
Sep 5, 2024
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Happy late birthday. I'm 24 too. I know that feeling of not wanting to hurt your mom, the same thing has been keeping me alive for the past decade. :mmm:
 

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