Story My journey to CTB

[bogdan_ctb]

Hello everyone!
My name is Bogdan, I'm 36 years old and I'm not native in English(sorry for the eventually mistakes ).
I'm planning my CTB for may next year and I want to write my journey here!
My method will be SN.

 

[Forveleth]

Hello! Welcome to SaSu! Sorry life brought you here. I hope your journey goes well and has the ending you want.

 

[asthedayends00]

What is your reason for ctb

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Welcome to SaSu!

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope you find peace.

 

[bogdan_ctb]

I wish you the best, I hope you find peace.

Thx!

What is your reason for ctb

Hmm... it's a long story; but to be as short as I can, I had enough of this life and I want to go to an eternal sleep. I'm at peace with my decision (I'm for some years) and If an association from Switzerland(where I was a paying member) had accepted me, I no longer be here now; but they refused me, because of my age and the fact that I have no chronic terminal illness; I had the money(10000€); so that's it, I will do it with SN, alone. Their method is amazing (swiss association): I could had go with dignity, but that's it. Marry Christmas everyone

 

[bogdan_ctb]

Hello everyone!
A little/big update: in January I aquired SN. Next step is to test it, to see if the purity is over 95%! On the product is 96%, but I want to be sure.

How are you?
Everything well?

 

[InTheStars]

Hello everyone!
A little/big update: in January I aquired SN. Next step is to test it, to see if the purity is over 95%! On the product is 96%, but I want to be sure.

How are you?
Everything well?

Bogdane, Bogdane ne se ubijati

 

[bogdan_ctb]

Bogdane, Bogdane ne se ubijati

??? I don't understand...

 

[InTheStars]

??? I don't understand...

Sorry, your name Bogdan, I thought you were from Serbia maybe or Bosnia and Herzegovina

 

[bogdan_ctb]

Question: did somebody donate a kidney before CTB(it's the only organ I can donate besides a fragment of liver); I want to do it anonymous and tomorrow I plan to go to the H where kidney transplant are performed! So, any info are welcomed. I don't need two to CTB.
Thanks

 

[bogdan_ctb]

Hello everyone
How are you today?

All goes according to plan here;
I'm not decided where to do it yet!? In a hotel or Airbnb? And in which region in my country
Any ideas?

 

[Sbetto]

Hello everyone
How are you today?

All goes according to plan here;
I'm not decided where to do it yet!? In a hotel or Airbnb? And in which region in my country
Any ideas?

Don't you live alone ?

 

[bogdan_ctb]

Unfortunately no!
But either I live or not alone I don't want to do it where I stay right now; I can if I want to, because I remain a lot of time alone.
But I want to CTB in another region of my country.

 

[Sbetto]

Unfortunately no!
But either I live or not alone I don't want to do it where I stay right now; I can if I want to, because I remain a lot of time alone.
But I want to CTB in another region of my country.

If you don't live alone and don't want to do it at home, you could consider a hotel or an Airbnb. I advise against doing it outdoors, in a forest, or in a car, as the risk of being discovered increases. You could choose a hotel room and book the check-out for a couple of days after your passing. Since people in adjacent rooms might hear you, I recommend keeping the television on to cover any noise.

 

[bogdan_ctb]

For sure not outdoors, in the forest or car.
A quiet hotel/Airbnb.
For the noise I thought about music.

Which noise do you refer exactly? Gasping noise?

 

[bogdan_ctb]

Hello everyone!
How are you today?

With my CTB all goes according to plan!
I'm getting a little bit inpatient...but I'm trying to calm myself with meditation.

 

[bogdan_ctb]

Hello everyone!

Just a little bit and it's may
How are you?

Any advice which perhaps I didn't considered?
Thx
Have a nice weekend.

 

[bogdan_ctb]

Hello!
So may has come

I booked my Airbnb for approximately one week; tomorrow I'll check in...and I will try to post daily until my day of CTB!
-I have everything to apply SN protocol, but any advice is welcome!

If someone want to join me(online-text messages/Whatsapp/Telegram/Signal), in my finals days, to talk and/or document my process, private me.
But only male/female older than 36 years old!
Thx
Have a great evening

 

[Valhala]

Thx!

Hmm... it's a long story; but to be as short as I can, I had enough of this life and I want to go to an eternal sleep. I'm at peace with my decision (I'm for some years) and If an association from Switzerland(where I was a paying member) had accepted me, I no longer be here now; but they refused me, because of my age and the fact that I have no chronic terminal illness; I had the money(10000€); so that's it, I will do it with SN, alone. Their method is amazing (swiss association): I could had go with dignity, but that's it. Marry Christmas everyone

All these association names are actually the most ordinary hypocrites who take huge money from their membership, and in fact I would say that they are also, in some way, at the service of the establishment and the dominant system. The reason for their existence (if we exclude their personal material benefit) is the hypocritical tolerance of their existence by the system with the aim of showing the supposed liberality and freedom of decision. fates of unfortunate people.

 

[bogdan_ctb]

Good morning, folks!

Last +cigarettes at my place where I stayed till today; and in a few hours I will get to my Airbnb!

 

[LaetumCat]

Good morning, folks!

Last +cigarettes at my place where I stayed till today; and in a few hours I will get to my Airbnb!

Good luck, wish you luck! It's unfortunate that life has been this was to you but... ah, well, just, good luck.

 

[bogdan_ctb]

Good luck, wish you luck! It's unfortunate that life has been this was to you but... ah, well, just, good luck.

Eh, it wasn't so bad; all depends of my internal attitude: I don't have the good will to continue anymore...and If Pegasos had accepted me, all were so easy; so, I came to this point, I made peace with myself, accept and I'm looking forward to...
-I wrote already goodbye letter for my family/friends(that's was hard like hell) and now I need to begin to write an official letter for the moment when authority will find my body. I have a few days left, so any help is welcomed.

 

[flutt3rshy]

Eh, it wasn't so bad; all depends of my internal attitude: I don't have the good will to continue...and If Pegasos had accepted me, all were easy; so, I came to this point, I made peace with myself, accept and I'm looking forward to...
-I wrote already goodbye letter for my family/friends(that's was hard like hell) and now I need to begin to write an official letter for the moment when authority will find my body. I have a few days left, so any help is welcomed.

I wish you the best of luck.
How are you making sure that authorities will find you and not the airbnb owners? I'm just curious, because when I plan CTB that's something I always worry about. I don't want to drag innocent people or my family into it and I don't want them to see me…
Do you have a method planned on making sure it'll be authorities who find you?

 

[bogdan_ctb]

Thank you!

With a programed email/text messages(it's a work in progress here)!
-my family can't; because they live in another county in my country;
-it's a complex(a corporation, who has a few buildings), with all apartmens in regim Airbnb;
-it's not a single person who has only an apartment and they rent it through Airbnb.

-and of course, the door unlocked!!!
P.S.: I don't want for anybody to suffer because of my choice, so I'll make authorities know/find me first.

 

[bogdan_ctb]

So, I checked in for a period; I'm proud of me because the area I choose is amazing
I went shopping for a few things...and I bought a bootle of alcohol; I have been sober from alcohol for 20 months...a part of me would like a few glasses, because the end is coming anyway ; not for courage or other bullshit, but for the taste of it

 

[bogdan_ctb]

Good morning, everyone!

Today, I'm going for a little walk(25 km)
-and later I'm going to purchase a few minor thing that I need!

Have a great day everyone

 

[bogdan_ctb]

So, I have:
-SN;
-metoclopramide;
-ibuprofen;
-bromazepam+xanax;
-propranolol (I don't intend to use it, but who knows);
-quetiapine;

I don't have an antiacid yet; I found only IPP!
But tomorrow for sure I will find something.
What's your opinion, to use or not a bigger dose of SN? I have approximately 70 kg.

 

[needwaytohell]

So, I have:
-SN;
-metoclopramide;
-ibuprofen;
-bromazepam+xanax;
-propranolol (I don't intend to use it, but who knows);
-quetiapine;

I don't have an antiacid yet; I found only IPP!
But tomorrow for sure I will find something.
What's your opinion, to use or not a bigger dose of SN? I have approximately 70 kg.

About 25 gms in 50 ml water people suggest that you've another solution ready as well. Hope you find peace.

 

[bogdan_ctb]

Thank you

About 25 gms in 50 ml water people suggest that you've another solution ready as well. Hope you find peace.

I was thinking about 30 mg!

To be sure...
Of course, not two glasses, but three
To be sure...