Story my first post

[dontdoitlol]

hi im new here and i wanted to share a brief introduction.

i'm 18 and my main struggle is depression. i may be a little different to a lot of you because 'hope' is not completely lost for me just yet. though ive been suicidal also, so it can be 50/50 at times. ive dealt with physical and mental issues over the past 3 years that have caused me to drop out of school, music and lose friends. i am chronically in bed and feel horrible 90% of the time. my girlfriend is the only one i have now and shes supportive of me. i feel so empty.

as i said tho there is still a bit of hope. im young and i still have a house to stay (parents) and a girlfriend. thank you fir reading

 

[Gaga786]

hi im new here and i wanted to share a brief introduction.

i'm 18 and my main struggle is depression. i may be a little different to a lot of you because 'hope' is not completely lost for me just yet. though ive been suicidal also, so it can be 50/50 at times. ive dealt with physical and mental issues over the past 3 years that have caused me to drop out of school, music and lose friends. i am chronically in bed and feel horrible 90% of the time. my girlfriend is the only one i have now and shes supportive of me. i feel so empty.

as i said tho there is still a bit of hope. im young and i still have a house to stay (parents) and a girlfriend. thank you fir reading

Welcome! Im sorry to hear about your situation.Being 20 years old, I am also in bed for most of the day and it's so exhausting. I really hope your suffering eases. Please take care of yourself

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be tiring having suffered like that but anyway I wish you the best in whatever happens going forward.

 

[HAL 9000]

Howdy!

It seems like you're in the optimal condition to seek help if it's financially feasible. Also sounds like you have at least one person who you can lean on and a place to call home. Your life is only beginning to take it's form so there's no reason to suffer any more than you already have. Best of luck to you.

 

[Cardboard]

Hey, I'm too shy to make a whole introduction thread for myself because I hate being percieved, but since you're in a similar age range as me and quite similar situation from what I read, I will write a little bit about myself under your thread.

I'm 19 years old and also struggle with depression, it probably started at around 15 years for me. My grandmother took me to a doctor because I was severely underweight. The doctor initially thought I had anorexia (they love stereotyping insecure girls) but luckily I had gathered some information beforehand and knew how to answer in a better way, and I was diagnosed with mixed depression and anxiety disorder.

Few months later I got into my first psych ward, that was when I started struggling with school. I've always had good grades up until 10th grade. From then on, I had switched 2 high schools due to missing a lot because of my mental struggles. I also still have some hope and a place to live, however I don't live with my mom. I live with my grandmother and I'm worried that if I don't graduate HS, I will never get a good job, and when she dies I won't be able to pay anything for myself as she is my only support system. Right now I'm trying to apply for a 3rd high school. If that fails I plan on CTB

 

[painful existence]

If you seek help earlier then you might get better . Otherwise if you ignore it then it would eventually get worse and you might reach a point where it would be almost impossible for you to make a full recovery.Trust me the pain would only get worse with time and you cannot imagine how much suffering awaits you if you choose to ignore it.I personally live in a third world country and when I was 18 I developed major depressive disorder.I didn't seek any help(honestly didn't know what to do) .I have been through deepest pits of hell during that time and I wouldn't wish that state on even the most evil human being on earth.I started medication after 5-6 years of continuous depression. .It did help but I think I had done too much damage to my brain so I never really made a full recovery.
My only regret is that if maybe I had started medication earlier I might have gotten better.
Looking back at my life I should have either committed suicide (I didn't because I was religious at that time and I also didn't know any methods) or sought help earlier.
However now I am quite prepared and if things get worse then I would CTB 100 percent