My family

[IronTusk]

Oh god I'm going to destroy them both emotionally and physically, but also bring them shame. I feel cheated. But this is life. I have my amitriplyine, meto, benzos... just need the acid reducer. And I have one final thing to do for a friend before I can exit.

It's a beautiful summer night too. I wish I could forget all this but I can't

 

[dolphin]

I know :( It's so hard.

 

[IronTusk]

I know :( It's so hard.

I know its brutal. Once i fall asleep tonight from the benzos i need to work hard to stay off this site and keep my eyes on my goal of exiting. I also need to work on my note for my parents. Now i feel like shit. SS is a drug too i guess

 

[Donewith_]

Sorry you are hurting.it's okay.. I try to just sleep when I find myself getting caught in endless unnecessary thoughts. I feel calm when I wake up.

may be if something works for you when you think endlessly.
And yes this place is addictive as much as it is supportive and helpful..to me atleast.