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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,781
If I am wrong, my apologies in advance,

If you are asking, I would NOT play any games with her, in fact I would be VERY skeptical about doing anything with her besides being a friend and probably not a close one at that.

I have through the decades had a few gals who either had money or viewed me as a walking atm machine. Either way, it revolved around economics and not feelings. I ran away all the time.

I grew up ULTRA poor, and the last thing ever was to have companionship with someone about money ever.

When you mentioned that she might be an adult child, that to me was not a red flag it was GET THE HELL away now aspect.

I have no family nor friends, no friends because every time the friendship is all about money and buy the new friend(s) things, NOPE! I would rather be by myself then have either to pay or put up with an anchor.

You are a caring and loving soul and please just be careful and not either get burned or worse used.

Walter
 
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ethereal_hobo

Member
Jan 20, 2026
28
Breakups are hard but it's generally easier when both parties stop communicating and let the healing process happen.
 
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Worndown

Angelic
Mar 21, 2019
4,113
A suggestion from left field, let her go.
You will continually revisit this scene. Different subjects, same problem.
 
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SuicidalCurryBoy

Student
Aug 22, 2020
125
If I am wrong, my apologies in advance,

If you are asking, I would NOT play any games with her, in fact I would be VERY skeptical about doing anything with her besides being a friend and probably not a close one at that.

I have through the decades had a few gals who either had money or viewed me as a walking atm machine. Either way, it revolved around economics and not feelings. I ran away all the time.

I grew up ULTRA poor, and the last thing ever was to have companionship with someone about money ever.

When you mentioned that she might be an adult child, that to me was not a red flag it was GET THE HELL away now aspect.

I have no family nor friends, no friends because every time the friendship is all about money and buy the new friend(s) things, NOPE! I would rather be by myself then have either to pay or put up with an anchor.

You are a caring and loving soul and please just be careful and not either get burned or worse used.

Walter
I'm going to stick with her, cuz this is probably the only chance I'll get to have sex.
 
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Worndown

Angelic
Mar 21, 2019
4,113
I'm going to stick with her, cuz this is probably the only chance I'll get to have sex.
A bad relationship is an expensive way to have sex.
Expensive emotionally
Expensive as it wears down your life
(you are here but still live)
What if a child results? Ever listen to Paradise By The Dashboard Lights?

All I can really say is Good Luck.
 
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SuicidalCurryBoy

Student
Aug 22, 2020
125
A bad relationship is an expensive way to have sex.
Expensive emotionally
Expensive as it wears down your life
(you are here but still live)
What if a child results? Ever listen to Paradise By The Dashboard Lights?

All I can really say is Good Luck.
I don't wanna die a virgin
 
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Worndown

Angelic
Mar 21, 2019
4,113
You are here so you must have a few issues you cannot beat.
It sounds like she has her own.

Is she fixated on video games?
Is she using them to distract you away from sex?

Lots of questions...
Sex before death?
Does she want sex?
Why are you planning to die?
Does she know of your plan? Is she stalling to keep you alive?
 
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SuicidalCurryBoy

Student
Aug 22, 2020
125
Is she fixated on video games?
Yes.
But her parents never let her play games growing up. And she's not a gamer. She said beating me made her feel good.

Is she using them to distract you away from sex?
No, we're not dating...

Sex before death?
Yes.
Does she want sex?
No. She said she's become quite asexual lately...

But she did say, if she's still single and unmarried by time she's 36, she'll forget about marriage and do it with me... idk if she's changed her mind since then...

Why are you planning to die?
Childhood of being bullied, physically and verbally abused, beaten to the point I've seen stars.
Used as emotional tampoon by female I was friends with, which led to hairloss at 21.
Rejected by the one person who ever made me feel happy.
No Job.
KHHV at 30.

Revenge is all I have left. But revenge is expensive, and I don't have money...
Does she know of your plan? Is she stalling to keep you alive?
Yes.
She thinks I won't do it.
 
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Worndown

Angelic
Mar 21, 2019
4,113
Not a great situation.
You are around 30 now?
Are you facing 6 years of torment?
It might be time to add another person to your life. Don't need to avoid game girl, but include someone more agreeable to your life.
Keep letting her beat you at games, do other things with other people.

It sounds like this is relationship is outside your comfort zone.
 
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SuicidalCurryBoy

Student
Aug 22, 2020
125
You are around 30 now?
No, she's 5 years older than me. She'll be 36 soon. I was hoping that if I keep being nice, I can woo her into sex.
It might be time to add another person to your life. Don't need to avoid game girl, but include someone more agreeable to your life.
Doesn't work
There was a girl (rape victim) who wanted to fuck me, because I was a writer and a game programmer + my accent. But she didn't want to go to a motel because "I'm not a whore", and she want me to wait till she moved out of her parent's house or wanted me to get my own place. She didn't wanna tell me her real name. When I found out, she said she doesn't want to do anything vulgar with someone who knows who she is, and said she's leaving my life. And she left...

There was another girl, I ended up sexting with her. But she randomly stopped replying a few weeks later, and I saw her on the same dating app I saw her on before.

It sounds like this is relationship is outside your comfort zone.
I just want to fuck...
 

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