My dog died today & I have all I need for protocol

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Last Sunday we noticed our beautiful girl Elsa was mildly sick so my parents took her to the vet where she seemed to perk up so they sent her home after giving her an injection of some sort for her stomach pain. Yesterday we woke up and she was shivering and unable to walk so we took her back as soon as the vet opened. They think it was some sort of snake bite based on symptoms and a blood coagulation test they ran, probably a red belly black. This morning they called saying she had gotten worse so we decided to put her down. She was already on a high dose of opioids when they gave her the pentobarbital injection so she went out in under a minute. She was such a gentle girl especially with our cats and deserved so much more than this. Im also really worried about my other dog Ace because he's alone now as our only remaining Dog (we lost Elsa's sister Koko to a Snake not that long ago). My brothers and I buried her a couple of hours ago.

Perhaps ironically my Metoclopramide and "Kalma" (quotes because it was from DNM and there are lots of fake Alprazolam going around) both arrived today as well so I now just need to write my letter and then I'm ready to join her. I have taken 4mg over the day so far and it tasted very bitter which apparently is a good sign it is real. 2 lots of .5 about an hour apart then an hour after that I took 1mg and then another hour or so a full 2mg. They hit me in about an hour which supposedly is within the usual timeframe for Alprazolam. It's definitely working bc I feel the least anxious I have ever felt in my life rn. I am completely benzo naive apart from a couple times in the ER when they gave me a single low dose Valium so I don't know what real Alprazolam is supposed to feel like.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry for your loss.

 

[TwilightSylph]

Ive lost 2 fur babies this year and it never gets easier.
Losing a pet is such a painful loss. I'm sorry you're going through that. It sounds like you gave her the best care possible in her last days, I know she appreciated that

 

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I also lost my baby girl Styx to cancer about a month ago who I bottle fed from when she was a day old. She was only 9 almost 10. It was already very advanced by the time we noticed and took her to the vet. She had been eating a lot less for a bit before that but otherwise seemed fine. Cats are unfortunately very good at hiding sickness as a survival instinct.
I am absolutely devastated losing 3 family members in such quick succession. Especially when they all should have had many more years than they got. I wish I could transfer them my life force and at the same time wipe my own existence from everyone's mind because they deserve it way more than I do and would have made much better use of it. Ace looked so sad when he smelled Elsa for the last time - he knew what it meant. He has lost 3 dogs now over his life and I'm really worried about him.