Venting Misery

[Unspoken]

I feel so mentally drained that I can't put effort into getting everything in order. I feel like I don't even have the mental capacity to write decent notes. I tried. I no longer have motivation and I don't want to do anything to get it. I have given up. I think Saturday is the day. Hopefully that'll be enough time to finish notes and get stuff together. If not, then fuck it all. I need to go.

I have a lot of debt. Can I take what's left in my bank account and leave it for my family as cash? They won't be responsible for my debt, but could someone come for the money if they found out?I'm hoping not because it'll be left as cash and the bank will have no idea what I did with it.

This is also a lonely process. It sucks ignoring phone calls and shutting people out, but it's necessary. I'm thankful for SS and a place to not feel so alone.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Hey, it's okey if you haven't got the energy today or tomorrow or this week. That's OK. Take your time, write it bit by bit if you have to, a couple minutes each day and always be proud of what you're able to do.
The cash is a good idea, but I'd make sure you documented exactly how much cash you are leaving so the numbers match up. Seal it in an envelope or something like that with sticky tape around it.
We are here for you always you're not alone, you can message me any time. Be strong