louboutinsuicide
i don wanna die i jus dk how 2 live
- Dec 30, 2025
- 26
i left my bf "left" as in physically as in i still want him as in if i lose hope that he will take me back i will genuinely lose my fucking dome
argument started off cause of some shit and i didn't react properly and he started spouting shit during a split that made me feel like he wants nothing to do with me. the kid in my stomach isn't his im a whore will never off myself cause i can't take the chances of losing my pretty face and "holes" just a bunch of foul shit.
so i found a new joint and left right before he got home signed off with a letter telling him to reach out that i'll just get a tad stronger. i left the door wide open for him im essentially letting him choose wtf he wants. with the hopes that he misses me instead of splitting on me permanently.
…didn't reach out yet and i'm guessing he never will he has veered off my scent trail. no longer chased. what is my purpose then if no one wants me.
he doesn't trust me despite having my location on always he did not / does not trust. i shouldn't have physically distanced myself im gonna leave my location on for him but hes going to think im at some guys crib or im gonna fuck something else during this period of time
usually after these sorts of feuds and when he is stable we are capable of loving one another and he is capable of retracting what was said in splits.
this guy has called me a whore has told me to go back to selling myself on the street why do i want him and why am i doing this. it was convenient
i know this sounds like the stupidest dramatic bullshit but this is how my head works in duress when i believe someone is leaving… i just make it worse. i should have stayed where we were at so he would pack up his shit and watch me stare off as he leaves like a puppy. fuck this shit i messed up the manipulation
argument started off cause of some shit and i didn't react properly and he started spouting shit during a split that made me feel like he wants nothing to do with me. the kid in my stomach isn't his im a whore will never off myself cause i can't take the chances of losing my pretty face and "holes" just a bunch of foul shit.
so i found a new joint and left right before he got home signed off with a letter telling him to reach out that i'll just get a tad stronger. i left the door wide open for him im essentially letting him choose wtf he wants. with the hopes that he misses me instead of splitting on me permanently.
…didn't reach out yet and i'm guessing he never will he has veered off my scent trail. no longer chased. what is my purpose then if no one wants me.
he doesn't trust me despite having my location on always he did not / does not trust. i shouldn't have physically distanced myself im gonna leave my location on for him but hes going to think im at some guys crib or im gonna fuck something else during this period of time
usually after these sorts of feuds and when he is stable we are capable of loving one another and he is capable of retracting what was said in splits.
this guy has called me a whore has told me to go back to selling myself on the street why do i want him and why am i doing this. it was convenient
i know this sounds like the stupidest dramatic bullshit but this is how my head works in duress when i believe someone is leaving… i just make it worse. i should have stayed where we were at so he would pack up his shit and watch me stare off as he leaves like a puppy. fuck this shit i messed up the manipulation
