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shark
- Sep 13, 2024
- 18
i wish i could feel manic all the time. like. i feel great. i feel amazing and beautiful and like life is worth living. yeah, it has it's downsides, like the spending and sex and stuff, but at the very least, i'd always feel happy. i'd always feel like i'm on top of the world and that i can do anything. i would do so much, i would feel invincible. i would never worry about crashing and wondering when the mania would end because i would always be manic and it would be amazing. i'd be an even worse person, but i wouldn't have to feel bad anymore. when i'm manic, it's like the world is so sparkly and covered in glitter all the time. it's so magical. i feel beautiful and my self image is through the roof. i have goals and aspirations that i'm so excited to achieve. i'm happy. i'm always happy. that's what i want most. is to be happy. with the way i am, i dont know if i'll ever reach that normal 'base line' of happiness again. but if i was manic all the time, i would exceed that.