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shark
Sep 13, 2024
18
i wish i could feel manic all the time. like. i feel great. i feel amazing and beautiful and like life is worth living. yeah, it has it's downsides, like the spending and sex and stuff, but at the very least, i'd always feel happy. i'd always feel like i'm on top of the world and that i can do anything. i would do so much, i would feel invincible. i would never worry about crashing and wondering when the mania would end because i would always be manic and it would be amazing. i'd be an even worse person, but i wouldn't have to feel bad anymore. when i'm manic, it's like the world is so sparkly and covered in glitter all the time. it's so magical. i feel beautiful and my self image is through the roof. i have goals and aspirations that i'm so excited to achieve. i'm happy. i'm always happy. that's what i want most. is to be happy. with the way i am, i dont know if i'll ever reach that normal 'base line' of happiness again. but if i was manic all the time, i would exceed that.
 
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SchizoGymnast

SchizoGymnast

Arcanist
May 28, 2024
413
I get dysphoric mania and to me, that's worse than suicidal depression. The rage and the paranoia are something else, and the hypersexuality? Probably the worst part. Not only did being hypersexual affect my mood and behavior, but it also had, um, visible physical symptoms as well.
 
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parentportaldotnet

parentportaldotnet

shark
Sep 13, 2024
18
I get dysphoric mania and to me, that's worse than suicidal depression. The rage and the paranoia are something else, and the hypersexuality? Probably the worst part. Not only did being hypersexual affect my mood and behavior, but it also had, um, visible physical symptoms as well.
yeah no, the hypersexuality is already bad enough. it feels alright for a while though.
 
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SchizoGymnast

Arcanist
May 28, 2024
413
yeah no, the hypersexuality is already bad enough. it feels alright for a while though.
I never really got to enjoy mine. I felt like a rabid animal begging to be put down. Hypomania is more likely to result in that cool, accomplished, driven, hopeful feeling.
 
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MourningFlower

MourningFlower

Optimistic Nihilist
Jan 8, 2025
11
i wish i could feel manic all the time. like. i feel great. i feel amazing and beautiful and like life is worth living. yeah, it has it's downsides, like the spending and sex and stuff, but at the very least, i'd always feel happy. i'd always feel like i'm on top of the world and that i can do anything. i would do so much, i would feel invincible. i would never worry about crashing and wondering when the mania would end because i would always be manic and it would be amazing. i'd be an even worse person, but i wouldn't have to feel bad anymore. when i'm manic, it's like the world is so sparkly and covered in glitter all the time. it's so magical. i feel beautiful and my self image is through the roof. i have goals and aspirations that i'm so excited to achieve. i'm happy. i'm always happy. that's what i want most. is to be happy. with the way i am, i dont know if i'll ever reach that normal 'base line' of happiness again. but if i was manic all the time, i would exceed that.
If we could bottle and sell mania, we'd have a lot of customers xD

The part that always gets me is how much more dangerous it is than depression, at least for me. A depressive episode is predictable, a manic one will have me walking down a motorway at 3am thinking I'm invincible.
 
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