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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,462
Hello, for almost two months I've been living an enchanted interlude...

I felt like I'd found someone... we talked well online and on camera. He was very loving, very attentive, and so was I... then we were supposed to meet, but he couldn't (funeral). I suggested another date; he didn't want me to change... and all the affection he expressed in his messages gradually disappeared... In short, what a disappointment. We might have formed a friendship at best, but I wanted more. He had to leave his boyfriend (I didn't ask him; he told me right away), and it's dragging on...

In short, his behavior has changed little by little, and I see that I won't be able to form the romantic relationship I was hoping for... So here I am again, suicidal, and on this site.
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

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we're here for you 🩵

I relate to your words. is having a conversation with them about it an option at all?
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
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bipolar22

bipolar22

Bpd. chronic gastritis. ibs. depression. AUD
Aug 31, 2022
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Long distance Internet relationship have low chances of working out. Just how it is unfortunately. Hope you heal from. the heartbreak soon ❤️
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,462
He keeps talking to me, but I don't know if we'll ever see each other... I'm happy with his messages, they make me feel good... but he's not available... I have to wait without being sure. As a borderline sufferer, I can't stand abandonment, even if it's not really abandonment. It's horrible. I'm suffering terribly from the situation. It makes me want to die; it's awful... losing half of your favorite person as a borderline sufferer is very hard.
 
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UnrulyNightmare

UnrulyNightmare

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Jul 3, 2024
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He keeps talking to me, but I don't know if we'll ever see each other... I'm happy with his messages, they make me feel good... but he's not available... I have to wait without being sure. As a borderline sufferer, I can't stand abandonment, even if it's not really abandonment. It's horrible. I'm suffering terribly from the situation. It makes me want to die; it's awful... losing half of your favorite person as a borderline sufferer is very hard.
Cold, empty and trying to push them away as much as keep them close to you?
Ghost hug! 🫂
 
Dot

Dot

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Sep 26, 2021
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If thy stll hve a boyfrnd & thy wre b-havng romantclly wth u thn imo u hve savd urslf mch wrse hert-ache l8tr dwn th/ lne b/ nt b-ing wth hm nw

Hpe tht u fnd sme1 bettr fr u
 
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Silently Dying

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Jan 27, 2025
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Hello, for almost two months I've been living an enchanted interlude...

I felt like I'd found someone... we talked well online and on camera. He was very loving, very attentive, and so was I... then we were supposed to meet, but he couldn't (funeral). I suggested another date; he didn't want me to change... and all the affection he expressed in his messages gradually disappeared... In short, what a disappointment. We might have formed a friendship at best, but I wanted more. He had to leave his boyfriend (I didn't ask him; he told me right away), and it's dragging on...

In short, his behavior has changed little by little, and I see that I won't be able to form the romantic relationship I was hoping for... So here I am again, suicidal, and on this site.
It seems nowadays it's almost impossible to form friendships or love interests in any manner. I've found that people play with your emotions. I'm sorry you are going through the pain of caring about someone and not having your feelings returned.
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
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No, I have been a widower for 3 years. And i hope this ....
 

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