Venting Loneliness

[squillykilly]

I always feel so lonely, I have so many friends but I always regret everything I say around them, like I don't think before I speak. And they never ask to hangout, I'm always asking and 90% of the time I get no response.
I feel like they talk about me behind my back a lot too, like "I love squill, but he _____" and I just feel so out of it lately. I don't trust anyone and I feel like a burden to everyone, I've been so out of it that I say weird things and misremember everything.. my stutter has been bad too and everything has been a blur... I wish people cared about me.

 

[boyafraid]

I'm so sorry about your situation. Loneliness is so damaging for most people. What you described is the worst kind of lonely imo. You have people in your life, yet they make you feel even more lonely. I had a similar feeling about some "friends" back in high school, and it never ended well ):

 

[Tobacco]

Those don't sound like very good friends.

Without my family I would have gone insane, but outside of them I don't really have anyone who'd ask me everyday how I'm doing. Maybe that's only supposed for teenagers...