GoSan1
Misfit
- Nov 7, 2024
- 307
Life has been hell, and if that wasn't enough, my loneliness has reached a new kind of "pain" and insanity growing from it.
Its just pathetic, honestly, since I know myself that I have NOTHING to offer to someone to make me interesting. And yet I have sought love my whole life. Even as I child I was looking forward to the future in hopes of having a lover by then. Well, poor young me, do I have news for you.
I find loneliness to be one of the most understandable reasons for suicide. Maybe that's also because I know the feeling too well, but I was always sad seeing people be alone. I mean, it's literally written in the bible that "It is not good for the man to be alone". And the worst part about it all is that after some time, you start becoming desperate. I seriously don't think I can ever truly "fall in love" again because I just get overattached way too fast.
I mean, why was I born to begin with if this was all there is to it? Straight up all the things I wanted, I had to accept the opposite. I'm not even living, but just accepting and staying alive for as long as I can until I have the feeling it's okay for me to drink that poison SN and make it all shut up once and for all.
I am sorry for the low-quality post or vent, but im actually going insane, with random twitches and screaming just out of insanity from this world.
Please, if any of you have a close one, appreciate them and love them. Because there are some who will never be able to do that.
Goodnight SaSu.
Its just pathetic, honestly, since I know myself that I have NOTHING to offer to someone to make me interesting. And yet I have sought love my whole life. Even as I child I was looking forward to the future in hopes of having a lover by then. Well, poor young me, do I have news for you.
I find loneliness to be one of the most understandable reasons for suicide. Maybe that's also because I know the feeling too well, but I was always sad seeing people be alone. I mean, it's literally written in the bible that "It is not good for the man to be alone". And the worst part about it all is that after some time, you start becoming desperate. I seriously don't think I can ever truly "fall in love" again because I just get overattached way too fast.
I mean, why was I born to begin with if this was all there is to it? Straight up all the things I wanted, I had to accept the opposite. I'm not even living, but just accepting and staying alive for as long as I can until I have the feeling it's okay for me to drink that poison SN and make it all shut up once and for all.
I am sorry for the low-quality post or vent, but im actually going insane, with random twitches and screaming just out of insanity from this world.
Please, if any of you have a close one, appreciate them and love them. Because there are some who will never be able to do that.
Goodnight SaSu.
