Venting Life is boring and pointless

[Spite]

The longer I go on, the longer I live, the more bored and tired I am becoming of life. Almost nothing brings me joy anymore and I don't really look forward to anything. Pretty much everything feels like a drag, even the simplest things like cooking, eating, showering, brushing my teeth, putting on my shoes, driving my car. Much of life comes down to repetition and routine: working a 9-to-5, waking up and doing the same mundane shit over and over again, coping by consuming media in my free time and trying to distract myself with creative hobbies. Rinse and repeat ad infinitum. Kinda makes me not want to be here anymore, you know?

I used to have some zest for life when I was a kid - some semblance of curiosity and fascination that came with learning about all kinds of things while I was growing up, but the older I'm getting the more bleak everything feels. My life feels colourless and it's been that way for a long time. I'm just a husk of a human being now. There's not much more I can say.

It's all so pointless, and I'm so fucking tired of this. I wish I had the courage to end myself.

 

[lpdsvm]

I often think (I copied my own comment) I will get sick one day or even worse. I am not immortal. I will lose my job anyway. Like why should I go to work tomorrow? SN can "cure" me now.
Not like I hate my job. I hate to overthink if I am not enough there
It is because of my pro life policy. No CTB if I can live decently without looking for food or thinking about how to stay safe from any trouble
Funny, sad, and weird.
"Revolution is brewing in my head"
There could be changes soon.

 

[kuroshimi]

I stopped planning and also stopped enjoying life. I think I also got caught up in the repetition and routine cycle. Not working yet, but currently studying at university and I simply don't know what to do after I graduate. Most of the time I am distracting myself by listening to music or just reading random articles and watching videos.

I always wanted to be simply understood and be left alone, but it never happened. And since then I lost any faith in life.

 

[balladeer]

So true..also it's rare to see another alter ego fan in the wild, i love es so muchhh :]

 

[violetforever]

The longer I go on, the longer I live, the more bored and tired I am becoming of life. Almost nothing brings me joy anymore and I don't really look forward to anything. Pretty much everything feels like a drag, even the simplest things like cooking, eating, showering, brushing my teeth, putting on my shoes, driving my car. Much of life comes down to repetition and routine: working a 9-to-5, waking up and doing the same mundane shit over and over again, coping by consuming media in my free time and trying to distract myself with creative hobbies. Rinse and repeat ad infinitum. Kinda makes me not want to be here anymore, you know?

it's so bad that i now cant help but repeat in my head to myself "what is the point of all this? none of this actually matters it's so stupid."

I used to have some zest for life when I was a kid - some semblance of curiosity and fascination that came with learning about all kinds of things while I was growing up, but the older I'm getting the more bleak everything feels. My life feels colourless and it's been that way for a long time. I'm just a husk of a human being now. There's not much more I can say.

even as recently as 2023 i still felt i had some of that curiosity and wonder for life about me. i've been suicidal since i was 11 but at least i had what i described up until 3 years ago. i recognize how i lack it now and how different i am for it. i don't know what to blame it on. just getting older? reaching my breaking point with my family? experiencing heartbreak? all of them? i don't know but i spent the majority of 2024 and all of 2025 more depressed than i've ever been in my life. right now i am more serious about killing myself than i've ever been in my life. i just feel like somewhere along the way i lost a part of myself that i needed to live and it's never coming back. i have very little or no interest in things i used to. i just don't care about much anymore. i don't want to continue on like this.

 

[badatparties]

 

[Pluto]

 

[Spite]

it's so bad that i now cant help but repeat in my head to myself "what is the point of all this? none of this actually matters it's so stupid."

even as recently as 2023 i still felt i had some of that curiosity and wonder for life about me. i've been suicidal since i was 11 but at least i had what i described up until 3 years ago. i recognize how i lack it now and how different i am for it. i don't know what to blame it on. just getting older? reaching my breaking point with my family? experiencing heartbreak? all of them? i don't know but i spent the majority of 2024 and all of 2025 more depressed than i've ever been in my life. right now i am more serious about killing myself than i've ever been in my life. i just feel like somewhere along the way i lost a part of myself that i needed to live and it's never coming back. i have very little or no interest in things i used to. i just don't care about much anymore. i don't want to continue on like this.

I think some people are just going to feel this way (the part I highlighted in red) after being alive for a number of years and having gone through so much. Many might fall into this pit in their 20s, others in their 30s, maybe a few won't cross this threshold until they're in their 40s? I think for me personally the downward spiral began around 2021 because I remember being happier overall and a little more hopeful about life five years ago even if I was still depressed at that time. I was also suicidal way before then (as early as 2012 when I was in still in school). I don't think there's anything in particular I can blame this on either apart from just getting older and maybe becoming more aware of my own mortality? I'm not sure. Something at some point broke in me and I'm not sure if this is something that can be treated. I'm sorry to hear you feel this way too and I really wish it wasn't like this. :(

 

[Echo]

I feel exactly the same. I'm pretty much over life now. I'm bored as fuck and dont see the point in most things I have to do.

 

[Lost Magic]

I relate to this feeling, completely, and it's only gotten worse as the time slowly ticks away. Even the things that used to bring me some joy are mundane and routine. Sleep used to be an escape, but it's not enough. I want it all to stop!