This week sucked. On top of learning just how exhausting a full-time job can be, I'm realising more and more that I'm way too lonely given what I naturally require. A few months ago, for some stupid reasons that didn't even concern me, my only friend group broke up. Right now I only really have 2 people in my life I'd consider anything like 'friends' - my flatmates.
One of them is a guy I've known since middle school. Unfortunately he seems to never have grown out of it and he can be really tiring to be around. He's a specific kind of person that you just can't really talk to low-key. If you want him to be a little more serious, you have to clearly state that, which inevitably brings the whole mood down. Otherwise, he will be tiring af trying to be funny in his very specific way. I mean, I'm just not always in the mood for burping every other sentence or farting instead of talking. I guess he just can't do regular small talk, at least not with me. It's his way of trying to be light-hearted, I kinda get it. But the result is that he is tiring me out a lot, after I come home from work and just want to relax. I don't know how to talk to him about this because like I mentioned, he'll either burp at it or take this super personally and seriously and become very sensitive. I feel like I lost the ability to communicate with this man.
The other flatmate is a girl. I actually like her a lot. We think similarly in a lot of areas, we get along stupidly well and we would hang out a ton since she moved in with us. Unfortunately she now seems to have the opposite problem to me, and her friends and people in general bother her constantly. It's kinda wild to me - if she doesn't reply to them in an hour it's like they think she's dead. Meanwhile I'm sitting here, if I get 2 separate messages from a friend in one week then I get really happy.
Suffice to say, she kinda needs some time for herself now, and I need anything but that.
The real sad thing is, for most of this week either I was staying overtime at work and she had basically a day off, or I got home at a normal hour, but she had to run errands or got a shift at her part time job and got home at 11 pm, tired af.
Oh yeah, and while I'm finishing up my Master's thesis, she's 3 years younger and just started uni. We had a good schedule to hang out before I started work. Now it kinda feels like we often miss each other.
I'm ranting a lot, sorry, I suppose that's maybe the purpose of this thread. But what I'm getting at is that times like these suck so bad.
I just got that job and already life is becoming this stupid cycle. I get super tired at work, I get home, I'm getting more tired listening to my flatmate, I feel super lonely so I wanna relax with a friend, but the only one who can actually help me is either absent or tired herself.
It's times like these that make me kinda question my plan...
I legitimately don't know how long I can do this shit for.
Thank You to everyone who cared to read this.
FV
One of them is a guy I've known since middle school. Unfortunately he seems to never have grown out of it and he can be really tiring to be around. He's a specific kind of person that you just can't really talk to low-key. If you want him to be a little more serious, you have to clearly state that, which inevitably brings the whole mood down. Otherwise, he will be tiring af trying to be funny in his very specific way. I mean, I'm just not always in the mood for burping every other sentence or farting instead of talking. I guess he just can't do regular small talk, at least not with me. It's his way of trying to be light-hearted, I kinda get it. But the result is that he is tiring me out a lot, after I come home from work and just want to relax. I don't know how to talk to him about this because like I mentioned, he'll either burp at it or take this super personally and seriously and become very sensitive. I feel like I lost the ability to communicate with this man.
The other flatmate is a girl. I actually like her a lot. We think similarly in a lot of areas, we get along stupidly well and we would hang out a ton since she moved in with us. Unfortunately she now seems to have the opposite problem to me, and her friends and people in general bother her constantly. It's kinda wild to me - if she doesn't reply to them in an hour it's like they think she's dead. Meanwhile I'm sitting here, if I get 2 separate messages from a friend in one week then I get really happy.
Suffice to say, she kinda needs some time for herself now, and I need anything but that.
The real sad thing is, for most of this week either I was staying overtime at work and she had basically a day off, or I got home at a normal hour, but she had to run errands or got a shift at her part time job and got home at 11 pm, tired af.
Oh yeah, and while I'm finishing up my Master's thesis, she's 3 years younger and just started uni. We had a good schedule to hang out before I started work. Now it kinda feels like we often miss each other.
I'm ranting a lot, sorry, I suppose that's maybe the purpose of this thread. But what I'm getting at is that times like these suck so bad.
I just got that job and already life is becoming this stupid cycle. I get super tired at work, I get home, I'm getting more tired listening to my flatmate, I feel super lonely so I wanna relax with a friend, but the only one who can actually help me is either absent or tired herself.
It's times like these that make me kinda question my plan...
I legitimately don't know how long I can do this shit for.
Thank You to everyone who cared to read this.
FV
