Hi again guys! I hope you're all okay in your own little ways. I am gonna be leaving sasu, I came on here to check out the scenery and to do my own venting and now that ive done that I want to leave but before I do so I just want to say something to any or everyone on here.
First of all I am so sorry. I am sorry for the mental and emotional anguish that you all are experiencing, I am sorry for the hurt and pain that people have caused you. Mostly I am sorry that life is not working in your favor, it sucks :(. Life is very unfair, one of my favorite songs has the lyrics "life is unfair kill yourself or get over it". The lyrics really resonated with me because its real shit, life is unfair and you either get over it and make the best of what you can or you end your life. Ive decided to make the best of what I can, I am young and somewhat healthy and ive witness things working out even when my past self thought it wouldn't. And I would encourage alot of you guys to do this as well. You're gonna die anyways, enjoy what you can while ur here and let life do what it does best :).
Secondly, I am gonna do something for you all in the future. For the few days ive been on here my heart has been broken over and over. I have sobbed for random accounts more than I ever did for my dead father. I am gonna fight my extreme hardest for my life so I can hopefully make yours better. I am not sure what I will be doing as yet, maybe its providing some online free therapy sevice or some financial aid thingy again i am not sure.
Wooo its alot I know
Lastly, i might get alot of slander for this but so be it. Try God one last time before leaving this earth. Give it your all. When I say this i don't mean you have to be some goody two shoes or whatever but just tell him what's going with you, if you hate him tell him, if you wanna die tell him just never stop telling him your problems. And ask him to help you, youre gonna cry your gonna feel like he doesnt exist but he does just be patient and I promise you, you will feel him. And I mean hey if youre gonna kill yourself anyway doesnt hurt to give big guy up top a try
Okay last last thing. Before killing yourself muster up the courage to actually watch someone die from your preferred method. (Can find it on those watchpeopledie websites) It's what made me snap back into reality and realize what the heck i cant do that to the little girl inside me, the one who dreams of achieving her goals and traveling. The little girl who loves brownies, food, music, reading stupid porno books, watching movies, tiktok, and learning about biology. That little girls deserves to live even if I dont want to. Be careful though its quite a traumatic experience. But anyways peace to you all, love yah
First of all I am so sorry. I am sorry for the mental and emotional anguish that you all are experiencing, I am sorry for the hurt and pain that people have caused you. Mostly I am sorry that life is not working in your favor, it sucks :(. Life is very unfair, one of my favorite songs has the lyrics "life is unfair kill yourself or get over it". The lyrics really resonated with me because its real shit, life is unfair and you either get over it and make the best of what you can or you end your life. Ive decided to make the best of what I can, I am young and somewhat healthy and ive witness things working out even when my past self thought it wouldn't. And I would encourage alot of you guys to do this as well. You're gonna die anyways, enjoy what you can while ur here and let life do what it does best :).
Secondly, I am gonna do something for you all in the future. For the few days ive been on here my heart has been broken over and over. I have sobbed for random accounts more than I ever did for my dead father. I am gonna fight my extreme hardest for my life so I can hopefully make yours better. I am not sure what I will be doing as yet, maybe its providing some online free therapy sevice or some financial aid thingy again i am not sure.
Wooo its alot I know
Lastly, i might get alot of slander for this but so be it. Try God one last time before leaving this earth. Give it your all. When I say this i don't mean you have to be some goody two shoes or whatever but just tell him what's going with you, if you hate him tell him, if you wanna die tell him just never stop telling him your problems. And ask him to help you, youre gonna cry your gonna feel like he doesnt exist but he does just be patient and I promise you, you will feel him. And I mean hey if youre gonna kill yourself anyway doesnt hurt to give big guy up top a try
Okay last last thing. Before killing yourself muster up the courage to actually watch someone die from your preferred method. (Can find it on those watchpeopledie websites) It's what made me snap back into reality and realize what the heck i cant do that to the little girl inside me, the one who dreams of achieving her goals and traveling. The little girl who loves brownies, food, music, reading stupid porno books, watching movies, tiktok, and learning about biology. That little girls deserves to live even if I dont want to. Be careful though its quite a traumatic experience. But anyways peace to you all, love yah
