Thank you all so much for the kind words :,)
I hope people are online tomorrow when I make the new thread so I can talk to someone lol. I feel like it would be easier if I wasn't alone
Why not combine SN with benzo's
I just can't be bothered to try and get them prescribed, and I'm a bit financially.. well I'm poor. I believe diphenhydramine has a sedative effect, so here's hoping!
I never know what to say to posts like these. I don't wanna say "good luck" or say something positive because you want to take your life and that shouldn't be celebrated. It's sad no matter the situation.
I can only say if there's no hope of improvement in your life, then I hope you find the quick peace that you are looking for but I'm sorry that you are in this position to begin with where you feel like this is the only choice you can make.
Also remember that it's never too late to back out even though you have already made this thread. If you have second thoughts and doubts at all don't feel like you're forced into still going along with it because you said you would, you can back out at any time and try again a different time.
I'm sorry. I wish I could give you a big bear hug. I respect your decision either way and whether it's in life or death I hope you find the peace you are looking for and that it comes quick and painlessly.
Thank you so much for your kind and thoughtful words. I do feel a bit odd considering suicide, as I know many in this cruel world would be elated to take my place. But due to an abusive upbringing, I am wholly unable to function as a normal human being. I'm barely an adult, and I simply find the world to be too daunting. I'm too weak. I tried so hard to be as unassuming and kind as possible, and I'd be hard pressed to find someone who could say I've wronged them. However, I just feel that I'm not cut out for it all. I suffer from anxiety and PTSD from the heinous actions that my caregivers committed, and they to this day have not acknowledged their actions. I don't want sympathy, or even an apology… I don't really know what I want. I wish I was enough for someone. I wish i was stronger. I just want to be gone, and I hope my afterlife is pleasant.
Wish you peace. Will you be taking painkillers?
No, my stomach is pretty sensitive, and due to a failed Tylenol OD at 17 the taste of it will probably make me so nauseous I'll fail the attempt lol. But I'm pretty thin, so I'm hoping I'll be able to pass out quickly.
