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Mary Janex

Mary Janex

Probably dissociated
Apr 2, 2025
66
I really hate my fucking life. I hate my brain and how it works. I don't know if the term dpdr means anything to anyone, but it's a dissoative disorder, that has ruined my whole life. I can't feel my body parts properly anymore and I feel like everything around me is fake. I'm disconnected all the time. It's so bad that I even have problems to walk sometimes because I'm not able feel my legs properly. It's literally hell and I do nothing, but rot in bed all day and cry. I am no longer able to leave my house except in the biggest emergencies because of this disorder. I just want it to stop. If I would be able to get SN somehow, from the area I live, I would be gone already. I'm not even afraid of dying anymore. I just want my peace. I've been suffering for years and I don't know what I've done to deserve it. I don't know why I'm writing all this, I guess I just want to share my thoughts to someone. I hope I can escape this hell, as soon as possible.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,645
I just want some peace as well, I just want to never suffer ever again, to be permanently free from this torturous, futile existence is all I hope for but anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.
 
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