Just saying hey (again)

[symphony]

Hey y'all,

Probably like literally 2 people on this site will recognize my username, but for a decent while I was active here everyday and spent soooo much time thinking over methods and then I just... stopped? And like, I am still seriously mentally ill and in a lot of distress and suuuuuuuuper want to be dead so I don't know what changed. It just all feels like too much work.

But as a byproduct of that, I stopped posting here, stopped reading threads, stopped engaging in this community where I had for a short time felt super supported. I logged back in for the first time a few days ago (after thinking about coming back for a bit and not acting on it). So I'm just saying hi, hey, here I am.

Just saying hey (again). How are y'all doing?

 

[motel rooms]

 

[Al_stargate]

Hey, sup. I'm doing the same. Cool you're back.

 

[whywere]

It is just awesome to have you back and I hope that you are doing great, because it is folks like you who help make me feel better about myself and that I am not alone in this world.

So darn nice having you with everyone here again, thank you for being you.

Have a suntastic weekend,

Walter

Thank you so much, I was at my pain doctor today and feeling really down afterwards and seeing your post made me laugh inside and outside and I heartfelt thank you for being so humorous and kind.

Walter

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering. I also want to be gone from this world more than anything and this will never change no matter what. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Hey y'all,

Probably like literally 2 people on this site will recognize my username, but for a decent while I was active here everyday and spent soooo much time thinking over methods and then I just... stopped? And like, I am still seriously mentally ill and in a lot of distress and suuuuuuuuper want to be dead so I don't know what changed. It just all feels like too much work.

But as a byproduct of that, I stopped posting here, stopped reading threads, stopped engaging in this community where I had for a short time felt super supported. I logged back in for the first time a few days ago (after thinking about coming back for a bit and not acting on it). So I'm just saying hi, hey, here I am.

Just saying hey (again). How are y'all doing?

Hi Symphony :) I missed you.

I was away for a while too because I was dealing with grief. So I understand you and I think we always should make the decisions that we think are best for us.

And as you can see, it was not only two people who recognized you :p

I'm glad that you stopped thinking about ctb. Maybe better times can come for you.

Anyway, I'm doing ok. As I said, I'm also back to being more active here on the forum because I missed the community and the support. I'm still trying to recover, working and doing the minimum necessary things but I'm still depressed, it's a process.

Kitty is great :) We're watching TV together as always.

And you? How you're doing today?

 

[Cathy Ames]

And as you can see, it was not only two people who recognized you :p

Yup! It's nice to see you again, Symphony--wishing the circumstances were better, but still!

 

[NSA]

Hi long lost member of Recovery(chat) band.

Same, same. I'm still the same. Wish I wasn't, but blah.

It just all feels like too much work.

Socializing even somewhere that gets it can be exhausting. I remember when I had group therapy twice a week, I had to cut it down to once/week because I was so tired for days after, and it was a good group.

Talk when you're feeling it, dont when you aren't

 

[Al Cappella]

Hey! I do in fact remember you