Some days you just feel worse than others. Usuall I manage to distract myself from my thoughts someway or another but today is just one of those days I frantically google suicide methods, statistics while slightly hyperventilating.
It really sucks because once it starts it won't stop till I go to sleep.
But then there is my insomnia problem which is usually worse when I'm feeling bad.
In conclusion: tonight I will lie awake, sobbing into my pillow for hours, waiting for the sandman.
Anyway. I just thought writing a little about it might make me feel better.
and I think it actually did
It really sucks because once it starts it won't stop till I go to sleep.
But then there is my insomnia problem which is usually worse when I'm feeling bad.
In conclusion: tonight I will lie awake, sobbing into my pillow for hours, waiting for the sandman.
Anyway. I just thought writing a little about it might make me feel better.
and I think it actually did
