I understand, I always feel so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence, to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again is all I personally hope for, all that I see as desirable is permanently ceasing to exist, nothing would make me wish to be burdened with this existence and I'd always prefer to cease existing than prolong the suffering of existing just to die in agony from old age. It terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long, I never would have wished for any of this in the first place, existence truly does just feel like a terrible mistake to me, I personally see existence as an abomination that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering and I suffer simply from existing, the tiredness I feel is such that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me.
