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BorderlineQ

BorderlineQ

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Feb 2, 2025
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March 15th

My game plan is as follows:
-Book a hotel for the weekend of March 14th ( 2 day booking)
-Arrive on the 14th and have my last meal at the bar, have a drink or two, but not enough to get drunk or hungover.
-Sleep the night and fast from after dinner on the 14th to early afternoon on the 15th.
-Have a nice bath with music and maybe use the hotel pool in the morning.
-At 12:00pm I will take my enemic, Tylenol, and beta blocker.
In the ~40 Mins I'll be waiting, I'll prepare the SN, and other small details like laying my notes out, etc.
- By 1pm I will take the SN and will lay down. I'll have a playlist playing and the dnd sign on the door.
- I then won't be found until check out time on the 16th. Which gives me well over 12 hours without being disturbed.

I have a complete cover as to why I'll be in a hotel for the weekend, so no one will question this, and my cover includes having limited communication to others so suspicion won't come until the 16th when no one's heard from me.
I'll also be having a note for the hotel staff to see upon checking my room on the 16th, so they aren't traumatized by seeing my body.

Ahead of the date I'll be preparing my notes/videos, creating a will that lists my requests, and will be taking care of as much of my monetary debts so they don't fall onto my family or wife. As much as I can without allowing for suspicion to be raised, I'll be gently getting my family and wife prepared emotionally. Though there's only so much I can do.

The only stress I have currently is that I won't receive my SN for a few weeks. So I'm in limbo if I'll get it in time, but I really only have a small window to follow through before some other things start getting in the way. Not that it'll stop me, but I'm hopeful that things will fall into place so I can do this on that March weekend. Here's hoping, and maybe Lady Luck will be on my side for my final days
 
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Epilogue

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Nov 22, 2024
31
Best of luck to you fellow bus catcher
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.
 
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DarkestSoul

DarkestSoul

Death = Peace
Jan 20, 2025
62
It's my birthday that day.
Earlier i had planned to ctb on that day.
But now I don't want to wait that long.
I'm planning to ctb before my birthday.
I'll ctb soon. In May be next 48 hours .
Let's just hope so.

Best wishes and luck to you fellow member.🧿🙌🏻
 
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BorderlineQ

BorderlineQ

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Feb 2, 2025
24
It's my birthday that day.
Earlier i had planned to ctb on that day.
But now I don't want to wait that long.
I'm planning to ctb before my birthday.
I'll ctb soon. In May be next 48 hours .
Let's just hope so.

Best wishes and luck to you fellow member.🧿🙌🏻
I wish you the best my friend
 
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sadalways

sadalways

My birth was an error
Sep 5, 2024
293
Wishing you the best if this is what you truly want :hug: sending hugs
 
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Aprilfarewell4

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Apr 9, 2024
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You have a good plan. I received DMC SN in 3 weeks and SD SN in one week to the US. I think yours will arrive too.
 
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BorderlineQ

BorderlineQ

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Feb 2, 2025
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As an update to everyone, I may be moving my date forward if my SN arrives sooner than expected. But either way my protocol will stay the same. Thank you all for your kindness :)
 
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