It’s so hard to live when all I want to do is die.

[livingonlytodie]

The one thing I desire above all else, is an early death. It is so difficult pretending to care about life when all I want is to disappear & stop existing. I don't have any friends or a boyfriend so I don't really know why I'm still kicking. Hopefully I'll be gone soon.

 

[yeaimhere13]

i just want to stop fucking thinking . oh wait ! where is the nearest gun

 

[livingonlytodie]

i just want to stop fucking thinking . oh wait ! where is the nearest gun

MEEEEE LOL

 

[deletednumber]

same...i am finding really hard even to do the basic things.
every sec of my life lately has been "i can't do it anymore....i can't do it".
I know I'm at the end now...

 

[livingonlytodie]

same...i am finding really hard even to do the basic things.
every sec of my life lately has been "i can't do it anymore....i can't do it".
I know I'm at the end now...

I feel the EXACT same way. Even the basics are annoying. I haven't been eating so I don't have to wipe my ass or shit lmao.

I feel the EXACT same way. Even the basics are annoying. I haven't been eating so I don't have to wipe my ass or shit lmao.

Sorry. TMI. LMFAOOOOO

 

[FuneralCry]

I just wish to disappear as well, all I personally hope for is to never suffer in this existence ever again, I understand just wanting to be free from it all, non-existence has been all I've ever hoped for but anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the peace you search for.

 

[Freedombus'25]

I relate to this whole thread.

 

[livingonlytodie]

I just wish to disappear as well, all I personally hope for is to never suffer in this existence ever again, I understand just wanting to be free from it all, non-existence has been all I've ever hoped for but anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the peace you search for.

I hope we both find what we are looking for. Wish you the best!

I relate to this whole thread.

Literally. My one goal for the year is to DIE

 

[L9my]

The one thing I desire above all else, is an early death. It is so difficult pretending to care about life when all I want is to disappear & stop existing. I don't have any friends or a boyfriend so I don't really know why I'm still kicking. Hopefully I'll be gone soon.

I feel the same way.

 

[human909]

I also feel this way, every single fucking day.

 

[livingonlytodie]

I also feel this way, every single fucking day.

The fact I could end all this with a bullet sounds so appealing.

 

[L9my]

The fact I could end all this with a bullet sounds so appealing.

you have gun laws?

 

[livingonlytodie]

you have gun laws?

No I could get a gun as soon as I turn 21 I just hate I have to wait two years!

 

[L9my]

No I could get a gun as soon as I turn 21 I just hate I have to wait two years!

wow. I'm struggling to wait another year, props to you.

 

[L9my]

I hope we both find what we are looking for. Wish you the best!

Literally. My one goal for the year is to DIE

that's my goal aswell.
hope it goes well for you

 

[Languish]

I like to believe the void is our natural state of being. We existed in peace, where we belonged, until we caught a disease that forced consciousness upon us.

Life is a disease, sexually transmitted, and thankfully.. invariably fatal.

Until then, I force myself to endure life. With conscioisness, comes survival instinct. I am not sure if I will ever decide to kill myself. If I am going to suffer existence in the meantime, I will at least try to enjoy it - if only to pass the time through escapism and avoidance of abject misery. I do not often succeed. Life is a struggle to even attempt to enjoy, and misery comes far too easily. Time does not pass nearly fast enough.

 

[rehm2k3]

The one thing I desire above all else, is an early death. It is so difficult pretending to care about life when all I want is to disappear & stop existing. I don't have any friends or a boyfriend so I don't really know why I'm still kicking. Hopefully I'll be gone soon.

I don't mean to discredit anyones struggles but hearing women talk about being single is low-key frustrating, you have no idea how many options you have. Whether you want those options or not is another issue.

 

[livingonlytodie]

I don't mean to discredit anyones struggles but hearing women talk about being single is low-key frustrating, you have no idea how many options you have. Whether you want those options or not is another issue.

I'm sorry, I'm a gay guy lmao

 

[rehm2k3]

I'm sorry, I'm a gay guy lmao

hey still applies

 

[livingonlytodie]

Motherfucker HAHAHAHAHA

hey still applies

 

[L9my]

hey still applies

what?
isn't the dating pool way smaller???

what does options mean?

 

[divinemistress36]

I don't mean to discredit anyones struggles but hearing women talk about being single is low-key frustrating, you have no idea how many options you have. Whether you want those options or not is another issue.

Not really most men just want hook ups . Yes not all but finding that small percentage is rare

 

[livingonlytodie]

what?
isn't the dating pool way smaller???

what does options mean?

It definitely is. All guys want is my body so I'm sad.

 

[L9my]

It definitely is. All guys want is my body so I'm sad.

im sorry to hear that.

 

[livingonlytodie]

I like to believe the void is our natural state of being. We existed in peace, where we belonged, until we caught a disease that forced consciousness upon us.

Life is a disease, sexually transmitted, and thankfully.. invariably fatal.

Until then, I force myself to endure life. With conscioisness, comes survival instinct. I am not sure if I will ever decide to kill myself. If I am going to suffer existence in the meantime, I will at least try to enjoy it - if only to pass the time through escapism and avoidance of abject misery. I do not often succeed. Life is a struggle to even attempt to enjoy, and misery comes far too easily. Time does not pass nearly fast enough.

I try so hard to distract myself with entertainment but it's extremely difficult. However, you are absolutely correct. Life has a 100 % fatality rate that will inevitably result in our return back to the void. I just have to kill time while we wait.

 

[Christian5483]

For the past two weeks, I have wanted so badly to never open my eyes again that after falling asleep at 10pm, wake up (I think around 9am) but just lay in bed, not opening my eyes, until almost 2pm. I was hoping it would all go away, and I just didn't want to start a new day. Every day has been like this for the past two weeks. Now, I have such bad back pain from being in bed for so many hours. Now every day is a little worse.. I didn't think it was possible

 

[DivineSpark]

I dont have a girlfriend. I dont have children. I have no career. Complete loser, but fuck that!

 

[L9my]

For the past two weeks, I have wanted so badly to never open my eyes again that after falling asleep at 10pm, wake up (I think around 9am) but just lay in bed, not opening my eyes, until almost 2pm. I was hoping it would all go away, and I just didn't want to start a new day. Every day has been like this for the past two weeks. Now, I have such bad back pain from being in bed for so many hours. Now every day is a little worse.. I didn't think it was possible

i hope you find peace or comfort eventually

 

[livingonlytodie]

For the past two weeks, I have wanted so badly to never open my eyes again that after falling asleep at 10pm, wake up (I think around 9am) but just lay in bed, not opening my eyes, until almost 2pm. I was hoping it would all go away, and I just didn't want to start a new day. Every day has been like this for the past two weeks. Now, I have such bad back pain from being in bed for so many hours. Now every day is a little worse.. I didn't think it was possible

I am genuinely so sorry to hear about your pain !!! I hate that you are suffering immensely & you don't deserve this at all. I hope you find peace & your pain disappears

I dont have a girlfriend. I dont have children. I have no career. Complete loser, but fuck that!

Fuck it ALL!! You don't have to have a girlfriend or career in order to matter. Society can go FUCK ITSELF!!!!!!

that's my goal aswell.
hope it goes well for you

You as well!!!

 

[DivineSpark]

No I could get a gun as soon as I turn 21 I just hate I have to wait two years!

Gun laws are quite strict in my country. If I would live in america, I would have most likely blown my brains out long time ago.