Venting It's my birthday today. Hopefully my last.

[Mira Gaga]

I'm turning 19 today. I fucking hate myself. I can't even look into a mirror anymore without being disgusted by what I see. Other people see that I'm successful and kind and a "good person". I'm a monster when no one's looking. I'm the monster under my own bed. I can't even get one person to go out and hangout with me. All I got is my blades and a tub full of energy drinks.

 

[natori]

Happy birthday

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Happy Birthday

 

[Mira Gaga]

Oh my, thank you guys so much for replying I didn't know anyone would even wanna read my vent but thank you so much guys! Y'all are amazing!

 

[_Vasa&Me_]

Happy Birthday!!! A bit late but what the heck lol

Since this is offtopic and I can be a bit more "free" in how I can express myself, I will play the devils advocate and say that I hope it wont be ur last! Since ur just 19 you can at the very least (hopefully) put it on hold and idk… give something like post-secondary or a special hobby a try.

You mentioned not having people to hang out with, well those two options I listed will have much more like-minded individuals so who knows, maybe something will happen? Its worth giving it a try eh? What do you got to lose at this point hehe

 

[darksouls]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

 

[Mira Gaga]

Happy Birthday!!! A bit late but what the heck lol

Since this is offtopic and I can be a bit more "free" in how I can express myself, I will play the devils advocate and say that I hope it wont be ur last! Since ur just 19 you can at the very least (hopefully) put it on hold and idk… give something like post-secondary or a special hobby a try.

You mentioned not having people to hang out with, well those two options I listed will have much more like-minded individuals so who knows, maybe something will happen? Its worth giving it a try eh? What do you got to lose at this point hehe

Thank you so much. Not late at all. I'm hanging on my a hair for my sport. I'm finally getting some awards and accolades and that's the only reason I'm still here. I'm obsessed with golf. I crash out when I can't play lmao