My SN just arrived and I stared at it for a long time. It seems almost surreal to have it. I have to still test the purity (I got it off a sketchy seller on amazon) and if it's not pure then I have another seller in mind. Part of me is happy just because I really like getting mail. Another part of me is happy because I have a method, a relief to all the pain I've experienced. Part of me is sad because I never really thought it would end like this, I'm scared about when they find my body and everything. It's not the best way to die. My current ctb date is in July (it may change) and I still want to make the most of life before I end it.
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I also wanna live life to the fullest before ctb.
You know, I don't wanna have any regrets!
Whatever you do, wish you lots of love and peace!!!
Hugs,
Matt
You know, I don't wanna have any regrets!
Whatever you do, wish you lots of love and peace!!!
Hugs,
Matt
Testing it is a good first step. No shame in pushing things back if you're not ready.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,437
At least you have an option to leave if things get too much. It would certainly provide me with relief having SN. Nobody deserves to suffer on this earth. I wish you the best.
If it's the 98% pure from a Turkish seller, I received mine a couple weeks ago and tested it using blood and it turned brown as it is supposed to if it is pure SN.
Like others have said, you can push back the date and there's no shame in that. This is the biggest decision you will ever make, so there's no harm in making sure you're ready. And if you're not ready, that's okay. It's your decision and yours only.
Like others have said, you can push back the date and there's no shame in that. This is the biggest decision you will ever make, so there's no harm in making sure you're ready. And if you're not ready, that's okay. It's your decision and yours only.
No I'm referring to one bought from the jungle site in the US online made by a company called DE. Trying to figure out if it's reliable.
LoupDeFeu
Idiot genius
- May 18, 2021
- 34
Bullit
Mage
- May 6, 2021
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LoupDeFeu
Idiot genius
- May 18, 2021
- 34
Someone told me there's a LOT of nausea and vomiting and I don't know if it's true but I really hate vomiting. I'm kind of phobic about it.
Lost Magic
Illuminated
- May 5, 2020
- 3,203
Yeah, I have SN that is untested. I plan to do it soon but I will need to put the package in an air tight container afterwards. I don't want to expose it to air for too long.
Lost Magic
Illuminated
- May 5, 2020
- 3,203
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