foreverafraid
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- Jul 29, 2019
- 3
as of writing this, i am mentally and emotionally drained. and also post drunk.
in short, we practically fell apart after a backstab. it started off with me being pissed at my bf (who's also friends with the others), then it devolved into one of our closest pretty much spinning him as a racist before he could even tell his side of the story.
my bf despises the fuck out of them now, and wants nothing to do with them, which...is valid...
but i tried to fix the mistake my best friend made. i didn't want our friendship to fall apart. not like this.
then my bf started asking me if i still wanted to be with him.
just the stress of trying to appease both parties is too much.
at the end of it all i realized that i'm really gonna be walking by myself for the foreseeable future, even if my bf and whatever's left of my friend group sticks around.
i want to just kill myself and pray that my death would bring them back together, but this isn't some fucking fairy tale or anime.
(...i'm sorry this is really disjointed.)
in short, we practically fell apart after a backstab. it started off with me being pissed at my bf (who's also friends with the others), then it devolved into one of our closest pretty much spinning him as a racist before he could even tell his side of the story.
my bf despises the fuck out of them now, and wants nothing to do with them, which...is valid...
but i tried to fix the mistake my best friend made. i didn't want our friendship to fall apart. not like this.
then my bf started asking me if i still wanted to be with him.
just the stress of trying to appease both parties is too much.
at the end of it all i realized that i'm really gonna be walking by myself for the foreseeable future, even if my bf and whatever's left of my friend group sticks around.
i want to just kill myself and pray that my death would bring them back together, but this isn't some fucking fairy tale or anime.
(...i'm sorry this is really disjointed.)
