IT NEVER FUCKING STOPS

[Pentobarbital_Plz]

OH MY FUCK IT NEVER FUCKING STOPS

Thoughts!
Hunger!
Thirst!
Poop!
Advertisements!
People being born!
MEMORIES!
REMINDERS!
Phlegm!
Hot! Cold! Hot! Cold!
Odors!
Faces! Voices! People EVERYWHERE!
Stuff! Stuff! Come buy STUFF!
Apartmentjobtaxesbillsemailsforms!
Words, words, words!
Same songs!
Same jokes! HUMOR RECYCLED FOR DECADES, CENTURIES!
Night day night day night day night day night day LONG DREADFUL HOURS!
RELIGIOUS BULLSHIT!
LawsGovernmentRestrictionsRules!
JUDGEMENT!
ORGANS! HAIR! itchy…
BAD TASTE!
PAIN! Discomfort.
Ew
ANNOYING! EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING IS ANNOYING…
WAKE UP!!! It hasn't stopped!

I don't know how to express it. It just all keeps going and going and going and there's too many people in the world and I feel irrelevant and CRAZY!

It just KEEPS GOING!

I don't want anything from this world. What's there to want? The latest and greatest STUFF?

I've started fantasizing that someone might silently sneak in while I am sleeping—during the deeply asleep but not dreaming bit—and blowing my fucking brains out, or injecting N.

I don't want to be a physical organism.

The other day, I had a moment of panic and shouted "I don't want to take care of this body anymore!! Get it OFF OF ME!" And it just kinda freaked me out how there's no separating from it. It's a nasty burden that I've gotta actually drag around everywhere and other people can see it and think it's ugly and gross, just like I do.

I don't know why I'm posting this.

I have so many thoughts every day, like every one. I'm not special!

I just want to die during that period of sleep where we might as well be dead already. The part that feels like teleporting through time.

BUT FUCK OH MY FUCK IT JUST NEVER ENDS! Never STOPS!!!

Every moment is panic because I am just forced to go along with all this stuff that ONLY EXISTS HERE ON THIS STUPID PLANET.

I don't know what I'm trying to say.

I don't want anything…just to die in my sleep.

I don't know what people mean when they talk about a "better life".

It's TOO LONG and TOO MUCH!!!!!!!

 

[Hollowman]

I relate so much I'm sick and tired of it all.

 

[jodes2]

Sorry you're suffering with everything

 

[Zegers]

I had a panic attack a few months ago, I'm sick of all this imposed shit.

 

[actual_fox]

earplugs,
good headphones,
dark curtains,
no alarm clocks,
long walks in the forest or park in the middle of a night

But other than that It is hell.

 

[DisillusionedDragon]

You have captured my thoughts on this matter perfectly, thank you

 

[almaranthine]

Your list perfectly encapsulated how life is endlessly triggering from every feasible angle. Just a complete fucking relentless barrage of shit in all directions, all caps, all day, every day. It's incredible to me that there are people out there who genuinely enjoy this world and being alive in it.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Great post. I just got back from the store. It was an absolute shitshow. People everywhere, acting like animals. Blind, graceless, stupid, obtrusive, no manners, coughing and hacking all over the place. Panhandlers cooking up some cock and bull story for me to give them money. I felt really disgusted with humanity. Definitely glad to be home.

 

[Wojaczek]

The other day, I had a moment of panic and shouted "I don't want to take care of this body anymore!! Get it OFF OF ME!" And it just kinda freaked me out how there's no separating from it. It's a nasty burden that I've gotta actually drag around everywhere and other people can see it and think it's ugly and gross, just like I do.

not only do we have bodies but we also have to take care of them and some bodies bring annoying issues with them(acne, dandruff etc)

so tired of it

 

[Arrow]

unironically one of the better posts on this site

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand how you feel. I want nothing to do with existing at all in every single way, the existence of life really is the most disturbing and awful thing and people should stop bringing life here as it just creates unnecessary suffering and torment.
I simply don't want to experience anything or have to think about anything anymore, as being conscious and aware is both pointless and painful, and life is such an useless concept, serving no purpose and never had a need to exist at all. As humans we deserve a peaceful right to die without having to suffer and struggle so much in leaving this world, because for me the only true relief is in the thought of permanently being free from this existence.