I have been reading posts here for a while and I can not help myself subconciously dividing most of people here down into two categories: people with serious health/financial issues that were so fucked by life I can not even imagine myself in their sutiation and people blaming their suicidality on factors like family members or romantic partners, which is something I can not relate with as I can not imagine someone being so important to me that he/she can ruin my life.
The only thing I blame for my feeling is myself. I feel like I am just to weak to push through life, it is bizzare how hard it is to put something together and at the same time how irrelevant everything seems.
No one did me wrong, I have had a pretty good start in life, I am healthy, I have all the resources to fix my life. The only thing keeping me in this state is that I am just a scared fucking thing that does not have a will to put the propper work in and I was like this for my whole life since the early childhood.
Is there someone who is living with the same thoughts every day? Where did it went wrong?
The only thing I blame for my feeling is myself. I feel like I am just to weak to push through life, it is bizzare how hard it is to put something together and at the same time how irrelevant everything seems.
No one did me wrong, I have had a pretty good start in life, I am healthy, I have all the resources to fix my life. The only thing keeping me in this state is that I am just a scared fucking thing that does not have a will to put the propper work in and I was like this for my whole life since the early childhood.
Is there someone who is living with the same thoughts every day? Where did it went wrong?
