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tpboy

tpboy

No Karma Cafe
Aug 4, 2023
485
It's getting in that range for me. Sure, seems quite strange to me. This is the only world i know and soon I will be leaving in search of a better one. I have a lot of feelings. I do have some guilt of leaving loved ones and loved animals behind. How do you feel being in this same place? Have you settled on a method? I have methods that will work but still not thrilled about them.
 
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ForeverCaHa

ForeverCaHa

Heartbroken Welshman
Feb 16, 2025
441
20 days left for me. It's been a struggle forcing myself to reach my chosen date, but it's an important one for me, high sentimental value and whatnot. I've made my peace with what's going to happen afterwards, I just can't take what life throws at me anymore. My chosen method is SN.
 
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tpboy

tpboy

No Karma Cafe
Aug 4, 2023
485
I appreciate your conviction. I think a date for me is also important. It may not be down to the day but at least a specific range. SN was on my list and i think it's not a bad one. Never got around to getting it on order. After we are gone the method does not really matter i keep telling myself.
 
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ididnotconsent

ididnotconsent

Student
Mar 16, 2025
132
Holding out for N. Don't think i would do it immediately. Would giving me comfort though knowing i had a peaceful and reliable method just in case things got too bad, which they kinda already are lol.

I think that's what a lot of people here want. I think it would honestly prevent a lot of premature CTB's but alas the shit is impossible to get without a trip to south America and risking jail time trying to bring it back.

Anyone know if N powder from china is still a thing?
 
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oneeyed

Arcanist
Oct 11, 2022
417
I don't have a date in mind but I do have what I need. I get anxious thinking about it but also a sense of relief. Then again Im in constant anxiety mode.
 
TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,082
I'm planning for July. I still have a lot of time. Nowhere near close to being ready. I've been putting off a lot of things.
 
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tpboy

tpboy

No Karma Cafe
Aug 4, 2023
485
Holding out for N. Don't think i would do it immediately. Would giving me comfort though knowing i had a peaceful and reliable method just in case things got too bad, which they kinda already are lol.

I think that's what a lot of people here want. I think it would honestly prevent a lot of premature CTB's but alas the shit is impossible to get without a trip to south America and risking jail time trying to bring it back.

Anyone know if N powder from china is still a thing?
i think n is pretty well out unless you can get it from a vet clinic. f is the new n i believe bc it can still be obtained.
 
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Thomas Rekowicz

Thomas Rekowicz

Member
Mar 10, 2025
64
I am waiting for my SN i plan to CTB after May so 2 and half month of life left for me maybe i will do IT on my birthday this will symbolicly close my life
 
Manic Panic

Manic Panic

The Black Dahlia
Jan 5, 2025
760
I'm planning to buy SN soon so I'd give myself a few weeks to a month
 
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weallhaveourghosts

Student
Mar 2, 2025
121
Planning for tonight. Gonna drown in a lake. No note. No goodbyes.
 
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