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nowherelilies

nowherelilies

sick of the sun
Jun 30, 2025
29
i feel so sad everytime i think that i'll die in this town. there's this added layer of sadness everytime i remember i'll rot in this apartment in this town i could never come out of since i was born.

i really want to go to fukui, japan. the tojinbo cliffs look so beautiful, how the waves bubble in shades of white as it crash against the rocks, how the tall spans of rocks just seem to go on and on.

there's also this place called hakusen shrine that looks so serene. i think i'll die happy if i can go there. i saw a video and i almost cried seeing how the sunlight pierces through the tall trees, how green everything is as it's all covered in moss. even the pond looks so beautiful as it reflects the tree leaves.

also, there's this cherry blossom-lined pathway too and a weeping cherry blossom tree in a shrine that i really want to see. the fukui arts museum, the dinosaur museum, the knife village too.

i get sad because there's all these beautiful places i really want to visit but can't because money and all the visa hassles. if i do get really motivated to go, i think april is the month that cherry blossoms bloom and i don't think i can survive that long enough to see it.
 
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fairygirl184

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Oct 2, 2024
11
super niche, but yes. i've grown up going to a place in south devon (uk) called dawlish warren. it's lovely and i haven't been for 6 years now. i hope i can go back there before i go. it's <300 miles away but its a long and expensive train journey when you don't drive!
 
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nowherelilies

nowherelilies

sick of the sun
Jun 30, 2025
29
super niche, but yes. i've grown up going to a place in south devon (uk) called dawlish warren. it's lovely and i haven't been for 6 years now. i hope i can go back there before i go. it's <300 miles away but its a long and expensive train journey when you don't drive!
i looked it up online and it's really beautiful. i have a soft spot for seaside locations, i think i just love hearing the waves so much. i really hope you'll be able to come back there and i hope it's enough to give you peace too ♡
 
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Kazu Ha

Kazu Ha

Weird German Guy
Jul 26, 2025
4
there's also this place called hakusen shrine that looks so serene. i think i'll die happy if i can go there.
Yea, Japan is so beautiful. A big dream for me too. The shrines, the cherry blossoms, Mount Fuji.
But no, I'm going to rot here in Germany, R.I.P me. :(
 
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eattwinkiesseejesus

eattwinkiesseejesus

Praying for death to a God that doesn't answer
Jan 18, 2025
111
If i had the money, my heart longs to see the homeland... Id love to visit Jerusalem
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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super niche, but yes. i've grown up going to a place in south devon (uk) called dawlish warren. it's lovely and i haven't been for 6 years now. i hope i can go back there before i go. it's <300 miles away but its a long and expensive train journey when you don't drive!

I love Dawlish. It's my favourite place to visit when I visit family that side of the country.

I want to see the sea again before I die. I love all landscapes with water in so, a few waterfalls and rivers/ lakes would be lovely too.

I love nature and there are some incredible places in the world. The Alps look stunning. Really though, I doubt I'll leave the UK again now. It would be nice to see some more of it before I go though. I loved The Lake District. I'd like to go there again.

Sometimes I think about revisiting parks I used to go to with family members (now deceased.) But, I just think it would be too bittersweet really. I'd probably just start crying in public.
 
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fairygirl184

Member
Oct 2, 2024
11
i looked it up online and it's really beautiful. i have a soft spot for seaside locations, i think i just love hearing the waves so much. i really hope you'll be able to come back there and i hope it's enough to give you peace too ♡
i hope you find what you're looking for <3
I love Dawlish. It's my favourite place to visit when I visit family that side of the country.

I want to see the sea again before I die. I love all landscapes with water in so, a few waterfalls and rivers/ lakes would be lovely too.

I love nature and there are some incredible places in the world. The Alps look stunning. Really though, I doubt I'll leave the UK again now. It would be nice to see some more of it before I go though. I loved The Lake District. I'd like to go there again.

Sometimes I think about revisiting parks I used to go to with family members (now deceased.) But, I just think it would be too bittersweet really. I'd probably just start crying in public.
such a wonderful little place - i'm glad you know it! hope you get to see these places again if you feel like it <3
 
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33K1LLM3

33K1LLM3

Pretty Girl, Sick Mind
Jun 28, 2025
112
The place where my lover is.
I want to say goodbye.
If I had the money I would go to so many places, but to feel that man's touch for one last time, would leave a girl like me satisfied for the end of time <3
 
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Zyntkalla

Zyntkalla

Welcome to hell on Earth
Aug 28, 2020
137
My plan so far is that I want to go to death valley. I have the money for it. So far I was thinking of going there for my last or second last day on my trip. I plan to take sn and then look up at the stars for my last time seeing anything. And before the day I leave I was thinking of visiting a few other places around there. But I haven't decided what yet. I am hoping I can do it this way. If not, I'll probably go in a forest near where I am.
 
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XKZyn

XKZyn

Member
Jul 27, 2025
21
I don't have any grand places like everyone else but I'd like to see my childhood home once more despite all the abuse that took place there, all the screaming and pain. My grandpa passed away there, the man who defended us from the worst of it. I just want to feel connected to him once again even if I feel highly undeserving of it. A close second would probably be a nice hill with a clear view of the stars, I love looking at stars when the loneliness hits hard.
 
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ultradespair

ultradespair

Shut-in
Jul 25, 2025
17
childhood home, school, playgrounds that I used to play at and the bridge ive seen myself jumping off of in a dream over 10 times
 
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