Is it weird to imagine my friends comforting me after hypothetical terrible things happening to me?

[squillykilly]

I don't talk to my friends about my suicidal side much, I don't cry or break infront of them either, I try to keep it to myself as much as possible, aside from the occasional "this bullshit happened today" type vent.
However when I'm feeling seriously suicidal, I think of what it would be like if I attempted and failed, I like to think of them visiting me in hospital and such, hugging me. Some of the thoughts involve them abruptly stopping my attempt and hugging me, others are horrible things happening to me and receiving comfort from them. I usually keep these thoughts completely to myself, I don't want to seem like a total creep. I do have a habit of daydreaming simple conversations and hangouts with my friends as I have been alone for a lot of my life and have just gotten used to thinking/talking to myself.
I just need to know if this is weird.

 

[NutOrat]

It's not weird. I mean, you're thinking about committing the single most impactful and scary act of your life, of course you'd feel the want to be comforted. It's totally normal, I have such thoughts too (but my family instead, I got no irl friends).