Is it weird i want to meet suicidal friends?

[sspkky]

These last years i've been exhausted and i'm at a point where i don't even know how to socialise anymore, i can only talk with friends i already have but they all live far away, i would like to have a friend to share thoughts experiences before CTB, but i don't want to meet someone new just to kms after i've met them, or pass more time with the friends i already have, our bond it's not so deep and i would like to keep it this way, this way i won't damage them too much. So for now the only solution i could see was isolation.
But i thought about it and i think other people would think the same thing i'm thinking, and since i would like to be happy before i die i would like to try and meet them and befriend them. This way if i or them would CTB we wouldn't be worried about how other would feel since we "are prepared". I think this way it would be also easier for the both of us to meet? I'm not sure about it, but knowing this info i wouldn't even try to fake being the best version of myself i would just say, think and act how i would like to.
Is it weird? If not, where could i meet people like this? I was thinking of going to a place where people would CTB and just pull a "you're my friend now" move, at least it's what i would like to happen to me, so i don't think they would be too bothered by it.

 

[ma0]

Humans naturally want to be around like-minded people and share similar experiences, so no it's not weird at all :>

That being said, there are tons of friendly, supportive people on this website alone. I found myself in an entire ass online friend group after being on this forum a little while. Explore a bit, you're bound to find someone.

(I myself wouldn't mind chatting, but I'm not very good at conversation :P)

 

[sspkky]

Humans naturally want to be around like-minded people and share similar experiences, so no it's not weird at all :>

That being said, there are tons of friendly, supportive people on this website alone, I found myself in an entire ass online friend group after being on this forum a little while. Explore a bit, you're bound to find someone.

(I myself wouldn't mind chatting, but I'm not very good at conversation :P)

I know it's gonna sound rich, but i wanted to meet someone irl, just so we could idk, go to raves, get fucking wasted, do a ton of drugs (wanna catch them all), i always wanted to know how it would feel when someone else cuts you and how it would feel to cut others, things i always wanted to do but never did, stuff you can't really do online, but i want to do it with someone; idk maybe i can't be satisfied and i'm just an hypocrite

 

[ma0]

I know it's gonna sound rich, but i wanted to meet someone irl, just so we could idk, go to raves, get fucking wasted, do a ton of drugs (wanna catch them all), i always wanted to know how it would feel when someone else cuts you and how it would feel to cut others, things i always wanted to do but never did, stuff you can't really do online, but i want to do it with someone; idk maybe i can't be satisfied and i'm just an hypocrite

Lol that makes sense as well, we all want different things in terms of friendships and that's cool!

Not sure where you're gonna find what you're looking for but it's never hurt to try. :D

Good luck!